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had a lot of thoughts about someone coming to me at school and telling me father was dead and I could hear myself screaming. When it actually happened less than a year later, the same screams were escaping my mouth like a reflex... like before I even knew it I was screaming. It just came out of nowhere.
Originally posted by sonjah1
reply to post by ThinkingCap
Thanks for your input, ThinkingCap, I haven't shared this with many, except my closest friends, and I think people here are more open-minded (well, mostly) then the norm.
My premonition was not in a dream state. It was in the wide-eye-open daylight.
To be fair, I will share a few more details. I was at home on break during my frosh year at college. My dad, bless his heart/soul, had taken a rare day off for the holidays. On this day, it was fairly mild, so he went and played a 18-hole round of golf. Then he came home. I greeted him, as I normally did, with hugs/kisses and a big fat "Daddy Duck (play on name), you're back....so glad to see you, Dad." A couple of hours passed, as relatives were in, and my mom had cooked dinner.
At this point, we were all in the kitchen....
My dad was due to play tennis after the meal....
This is *when* the premonition occur, and just based on my experiences, it was God-driven: "Go hug your dad. Go tell him you love him" was the message I received. AND NO I AM NOT MENTALLY ILL! Which message scared the Hades out of me, (and despite being very awkward among company, etc.), I hugged him and told him I loved him.
Then he went to play indoor tennis.....for about 2 hours...early evening around 7-9 PM on Dec. 17th.
When he returned, he complained he thought he was getting a chest cold, bronchitis, or pneumonia.....
(He also told me my mom was killing him with all of her holiday shenanigans). So, he went to shower, at approx. 9:30 Pm, then he got in bed and never woke up. I was downstairs when I heard my mom screaming....I tried CPR, callled 911, did everything I could...
Why in the hell did I not act on that first intuition/premonition?
I strongly believe you were contacted, to do just what you did. Give him a hug and tell him you love him. That is what you were meant to do. Nothing more. No guilt. It was clearly his time to pass, and you did everything within your power - which was to relay your love at the end. There was no way for you to know that he was going to die. But please consider that though you miss him greatly, and may feel like he was stolen from you, death is not the end. The way he died, compared to many deaths, sounds like a beautiful death to me. I don't feel comfortable saying any of this, even from the comfort of my keyboard, but please know that this experience you had has many positive aspects to it.
...He died peacefully, and with love by his side. When it is someones time, there is no better way to pass.
Yes, about 4-5 years ago in the springtime I got a feeling I would die in August. Well come August I didn't pass over....However, in early December of the same year my da was diagnosed with Canceer. The tumor grew off his kidney and had mastised onto his liver and lung and was spreading when they found it. The sad new was he passed away on August 17. And another time I actually saw what could be described as "spirits crossing over" into a bright light. I will tell you what I will start a thread about it.
Originally posted by sonjah1
reply to post by ChaosMagician
I can only hope that you don't feel the guilt that I do.
Points to remember:
- your premonitions were vague; and lasted for just a year--futhermore, you were/are young, and I'm sure you were having other daydreams (as was i)
- you didn't have any specificity in your dreams to point *anyone* in one direction or another
- you may or may have not journaled; but probably if you had, and put up your "points" quickly, you would have been judged as "crazy", correct?
Accidents, happen, unfortunately.....
I still feel for your loss....edit on 23-12-2010 by sonjah1 because: eta
spring 2006 I get the feeling that I will die in August of that year. This was a normal passing thought but a feeling that nagged me.
December 2006 dad get pallops taken off his eshageal airway and he had always had a hianeal hernia and they noticed something that looked precancerous in that area...then when checking out the rest of him found the renal tumor...
August 17, 2007 dad passed .......
Why would you feel guilty? It's not our choice to change someone's choice to go on. I happen to believe that death is a personal choice.
I think I'm very intuitive. I've experienced quite a bit of death in the last five years. The day of my aunt's death, I cried all day. I also 'know' that we are all connected and I think that connection is very strong with those we are close to. I was very close to my father, but knew his death would ease his suffering. We sometimes have a very strong bond with a parent.