posted on Dec, 20 2010 @ 12:39 PM
I suppose it is time for me to introduce myself and maybe offer some form of hope for those of us who are feeling lost or may be in despair .
I am a 45 year old male from Manchester , UK and until a year ago I had everything I thought I needed to be truly happy. I had a wife, but sadly , no
children. I had a nice home, a good job and close friends.
A year later , I am sat alone in a one bedroom flat. I still have my job, but only just . My wife and friends and a subsequent lady friend have all
turned their backs to me , and rightly so .
My problems started when I became addicted to sleeping pills and pain killers . I had badly injured my back and found it hard to sleep , so the pills
offered great relief , at first . Then people around me started to notice slight changes in my personality. I started to become irritable and
agressive . I didn't notice the side effects of the pills , slowly start to take a hold of me . I started to drink , heavily . Then my wife told me
to leave because she couldn't take any more of my erratic behaviour . My friends stayed close to my wife . At this point I was a total wreck and was
feeling nothing but self pity.
Three weeks ago , I was walking in the park . I say walking , but I was almost zombified. All of a sudden I came across a part of the park that I
didn't recognise. There was a small boating lake with geese and ducks , basking in the autumn sun . Then I came across an old man who was sat on a
bench beside the lake . He just looked at me at first and then he smiled and said to me " It dosn't have to be this way. You have a choice " He
then got up and walked away. All of a sudden I too could feel the warm autumn sun on my face and I heard a small birding singing , off in the distance
. It was like a dark cloud was lifted from over me and I was suddenly more lucid than I had been in months .
The words of the old man have had an instant and lasting effect on me because since then I have been sober and no longer take the pills . I have
started a new hobby of painting ( even managed to sell one , last week ) .
The funny thing is , I have been back to the park since and haven't come across the little boating lake , or the old man.
I am still alone , but my life is getting back on track and I am happy again.
Thank you for taking the time to read my intro .
Peace and hope to you all .