reply to post by sbctinfantry
I have had my own experiences with being awakened to the existence of God and the Spirits of the Universe speaking to and through us. My experiences
were not like yours they were more spread out over time, Although many of the events involved the feelings of being torn apart emotionally and also
feeling loved comforted and peaceful at the same time and then having a sense of being empowered afterwards are very similar. I also during one event
felt a great fear like i had never had before and for a brief moment I felt that if I did not submit myself to whatever forces were at play that I
would surely die. And as soon as I decided to submit and stop fighting almost offering myself up to whatever it was that was attacking me I felt no
fear and a calming euphoria and feelings of extascy set in.
Looking back and reflecting on the past there were many times that these events had occured in my lifetime although they were much more subtle than
the ones that finally convinced me to open my eyes my ears my heart and my mind and eventually my mouth to the word of God. I had just been ignoring
them for quite a long time. I had always doubted what i was feeling and witnessing was real and I questioned whether they were just figments of my
imagination thinking i was just seeing what i wanted to see and hearing what i wanted to hear..
One of the early subtle events was so strange and unexplainable to me that i completely blew it off as an hallucination. Even having disregarded this
event it still stuck with me and was a life changing event. I didn't believe what my eyes were seeing because it had occured when i was under the
influence of coc aine. I was just sitting in my room and watching TV and getting high when a short clip for the evening news came on the TV. It
was a reporter who was covering a story about people protesting at the City Hall in San Francisco which is where i am from. All of a sudden I saw my
grandmother standing behind the reporter on the steps of City Hall waving at the camera and at me. She was smiling and waving her hand saying hello.
All the other people around her were shouting and looked angry walking with picket signs. My eye was drawn to the image of my grandmother standing
behind the reporter because she didn't fit into the whole scenario. She stood out like a sore thumb.
She really stood out in the image as being something strikingly different than her surroundings. Something about the image wasn't right like she
didn't really belong there for some reason and she wasn't acting like all the people around her. As soon I noticed her and recognized her. I did a a
sort of double take and shook my head blinking my eyes and i was so freaked out I said to myself "oh my god "as i jumped up from my seat and ran up
close to screen to get a closer look. And sure enough it was her only she looked about 10 or 20 years younger than she actually was. then the quick
clip ad was over. And i was left standing there with my mouth hanging open in shock and total confusion.about what I just saw..
At the time my grandmother was in a nursing home and I i really believed it was her on the screen so vividly that right after the clip ended I had to
call the nursing home to find out if she was still there and when i called she was still there. So I decided that I didn't see what i saw even though
I was absolutely positive it was her. This led me to go and visit her at the hospital and I went back once a week for about 2 months. I even brought
my guitar and sang her a song i had just written not very long before the TV event had occured.
One night during my shift at work.I leaned against a mirror very lightly. A mirror that many people had leaned against many many times. And as I
leaned against it, it broke leaving a large single crack across the center. Earlier that same night i was standing at a window that was facing the
direction of the nursing home my grandmother was at and a huge bolt of lightning struck the ground directly in the area of the nursing home. I thought
nothing of it at the time except that what bad luck to break the mirror and it was a strange lightning bolt because there was no rain storm that night
and the lighting bolt was very was unique and uncommon for our area. We usually only see flashes in the sky and rarely see a bolt actually hit the
ground. Also to my best recollection I didn't even hear any thunder and no other lighting occured the rest of that night. The next day I learned that
my grandmother had passed away during the night just about the same time as the lighting had occured.
Then during the following months after that i really was emotionally shook up. It was the first close family member that had died during my lifetime
and the events leading up to it were starting to feel surreal and lined up like pieces of a puzzle. I also couldn't get the image of my grandmother
from the TV out of my mind which somewhat comforted me during the times I mourned for her passing and I felt so glad I went and saw her and visited
with her those times before she died.
The next event was one that caused me to be so afraid It put me in a brief state of panic. It was a few years later and I was now living in a new
house which was near a graveyard. I was always kinda creeped out by that and I had been feeling that a ghostly presence was watching me at night. One
night i was dozing off to sleep when i felt that presence of a ghost and i started to get upset and said out loud "go away" in an angry voice. Thats
when i felt something touch my leg and i froze in fear held my breath and felt like i was going to have a heart attack. I then said out loud "please
don't kill me" and in thought i said i will do what ever you want threw my arms to each side giving up thinking i was going to die. At that exact
moment all my fear subsided and I felt totally relaxed and safe and loved like a cloud was petting me all over my body.and i felt like a baby in
it's mothers warm embrace.
During the next few months I began to start hearing whispers and voices in my head and started seeing hidden messages that seemed to be calling me and
some acted like they were jumping and waving at me and others were blinking and flashing trying to get my attention, I heard animals like birds and
dogs that seemed to be reacting to my emotional state of mind with loud calls and barks and when i thinking negatively and when i calmed myself down
they calmed down too. I continued to hear and see these messages from strange but also common symbols i had normally passed by every day. It was like
he Spirits of the Universe were trying to speak to me everywhere and in everything almost all the time for days and unless I made serious effort to
block it out. I couldn't stop it from happening. Sometimes I tried blocking it out of fear or anger or just from total exhuastion of trying to
understand and comprehend the meanings. But I also was drawn to these messages and started looking for them more and more. Soon I was assigning
personal meanings to everything and i couldn't even watch the TV at times because every word i heard was freaking me out like it was directed
straight at me, I even tried flipping through the channels to break away from the madness but it just followed me. I slowly stopped trying to look for
the messages and symbolism surrounding me and I eventually blocked it out for a long period of time and somewhat began to question whether it real or
was it just my own mind playing tricks on me.
Well a few years had past and I knew that i wasn't going insane. I was able to sort of turn it on and off whenever was necessary to go about my daily
life. But every now and then i would turn it on when i was alone and I was again bombarded with messages from what I believed to be from an invisible
force or other dimension. I learned or taught myself to quiet the madness and interpret the meanings that these messages were saying. And it all said
that I was very important as are all of us on this planet. and that i needed to improve upon myself to better my life and the people around me and
eventually that would help in better the entire planet and the Union that we have with God. That God is upset with us for our behavior to him the
planet and ourselves and how can we be so blind and stupid and selfish to ignore him and all the times he's spoken directly to us through out our
Well these messages haven't stopped and they are becoming more and more widespread into the lives of everyone. The hand of God is directing us to
look at ourselves in the mirror and giving us a reality check like never before. Because we have never been so blind to the importance of our
collective soul and the love we are supposed to be giving to each other and to God and to our blessed planet. It is our duty to remind everyone to
wake up and look around and start to clean up the mess we're making of our lives and our planet and our future. If we don't he may just decided to
let the cockroaches take over the Earth and see if they can do a better job. But as much as he is hurt and sad and upset with our behavior. He is also
proud and has hope for us still and is encouraging us all to find him and the love we are receiving everyday. And that we are a conduit for that light
and love and that we all already know this in our hearts.
So why the hell are we still ignoring it and being so careless. We have become a fast food, TV dinner, make a quick buck at any cost society of
consumers that will tear this world apart unless we each do our part to behave better on all levels. Even our thoughts matter and this is nothing new
but it has really gotten out of control and we are quickly and exponentially creating our own demise by being a bunch of spoiled brats who have to
have what we want when we want it and if we don't get it then we're going to throw a tantrum and ruin it for everyone.else.
Please everyone this is so important to pass on the message and find Gods Love within your soul. To teach the future generations the mistakes we have
made and to not repeat the past ones. It will be easy if we all can let go of the fear and hate that greed and jealousy has caused within our lives.
It's time to WAKE UP and GROW UP and CLEAN UP. and be kind to each other, love each other help each other more. It's not so impossible unless we
decide to just ignore the truth and feed into the fear and lies we keep telling our selves everyday.
What does God have to do to make you believe he/she/we /it exists? Do you need a miracle? Do you need to see it to believe it? Look in the mirror
and there you are. If you don't want talk to God. thats fine he hears you anyway.. He loves you anyway . He believes in us even if we don't believe
in him. But you must believe in Love and you must try to help fix the problems that we have created. Before this heaven becomes our hell. The future
depends on all of us to do what is right in our hearts. Not just what is right for our wallets. We are all family no one is more important than the
next. Treat others and the Planet like you would want to be treated.