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Originally posted by kinkykoala
reply to post by alysha.angel
Hi, I thank you for your answers, actually every ones, although I'm still lost, maybe I just need more practice and it will happen...The reason I know it can is because I've had several through my life already, I wasn't trying to, it just happened spontaneously, and it's not hard for me to listen in to the internal noise, and I feel like I'm almost there all the time, I know what it feels like, because again it's happened more than once to me, I long for it again, and I would love to have some control over it, although the spontaneous experiences I had were all phenomenal good feelings, they were not bad!!....
Ok, in response to you in particular, I read your signature, and I just felt like I had to comment....
You need to quit mourning or at least feeling bad that your mom is gone, it's natural to miss her, but when you say please God take me instead of her, well, that's totally counter-intuitive to His plan, if your mom was really a beautiful and perfect person, well, then she had accomplished what God had for her to accomplish and achieved a level of perfection that was deemed necessary for her next step....You shouldn't begrudge that she gets to go on now and achieve even greater things, If God was to take you instead of her, where you still have to come up to that level, well, that's not a good way to go about it, He knows what He's doing, you will see your Mom again, and if you have done the best you could with the live you are living, well, it will be more joyous than you can imagine....Be grateful for your mom going on, even though you miss her, and be grateful that God has given you some time still to achieve all you can achieve here.....Just my two cents worth.
God bless you in your journey here.....edit on 4-12-2010 by kinkykoala because: corrected a spelling error