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Look at the world today....everyone is one way or another depressed or has anxiety or some label for their issues. But what did people do hundreds of years ago with all of these issues
Originally posted by amc621
reply to post by mossme89
Buddy, let me tell you something. ENJOY what you are doing right now. I felt THE EXACT same way about sitting in a class room that I didn't think there was going to be anyhting I would use the rest of my life.
What you can do is watch people interact, watch how the teacher tries (or doesn't try) to get his message across. If you can't stand the class, try to learn about the people around you, it will go a long way in life.
Believe me your life is NO WAY as bad as you think. No one will ever be able to convince you (no one convinced me), but I wish I could go back to those days now knowing what I know now.
Originally posted by mossme89
Originally posted by Pentothal
ideal != observation = unhappy.
Pay attention to how you think for the next hour. Try not to drift into your thoughts and daydreams. Try to stay at the edge of your perceptions (listen to every sound, feel every little sensation on the surface of your body).
You may last less than a minute. You may drift into the mind made narrative. Simply bring yourself back to the cutting edge of awareness and try again.
After an hour of this, try and calculate the percentage of your life you spend in your mind made reality rather than awake. It shocked me greatly. I have been walking in a dreamworld most of my life. I can now see that almost everyone is on autopilot.
Be aware and observe where you are as intensely as possible. Do not judge what happens. Just observe and act consciously. Unhappiness is when your demands are not met. When things do not happen the way you want them to. Do not make the demands and one can not be made unhappy when they are not met. Awake and pure observation.
You definitely have a point. I know i spend a ton of time in my head, but my biggest issue is how do i get out of my head and into what's going on? My mind just seems to have a tendency to wander. It always has.
Originally posted by mossme89
I'm so sick of going to school and learning about things that other people deem important, being indoctrinated. I only do it because i feel like i have to in order to do anything in society. Nowadays, you can't get a good job without a college degree. I'm still in HS btw. Plus, being in school gets me around people, which is really one of my only pleasures, socializing. But secretly, i resent the bureaucrats and elite who make me do this. Why should i have to learn Spanish to graduate? I feel helpless and powerless against this machine we call the system.
I think every day of why i'm this way. Why i'm able to see how messed up society is, and why i just can't seem to buy into a 9-5 job and schooling. Why i resent authority. Why I'm OCD and have a temper. Why I'm a bit of a loner, introvert yet am happiest around people (a bit of a paradox).
I'm rooting for the whole 2012 thing because frankly i can't stand it anymore. But the rational part of me tells me that nothing will really change. I don't know what will happen.
I keep trying to envision a society that i would like to be in, but think of a logical way to get from here to there (open, free society, abundant resources, free energy, live and let live approach, etc.) The world I'm in and the world i want to be in are 2 different worlds. Perhaps being 17 has something to do with it. i'm at that age where the identity crisis is at it's peak and i can see that. But i just get so down when i start to think about my future. With things the way things are now, i can't do anything without money. What i want is to be able to be free to do as i please (without harming anyone). To be able to travel and meet people. To be able to relax at the beach if i feel like it. To just have fun. Yet i can't do that in our current world without money.
I try to have fun with the little things in life, yet it's so hard when the world is so messed up. If I try to forget about what's going on in the world, and have a good time, i feel like i'm turning a blind eye to the world and feel guilty. If i mess up, i beat myself up and feel guilt for a while. With OCD, i get random thoughts sometimes, like unwanted, crude and disgusting thoughts. It's a dark side. I feel like such a bad person because i have these thoughts.
I'm not going to kill myself or anything, but i'm just so tired and worn out of everything. I'm posting this here because I'm hoping you guys can give me some advice. I don't think I'm mentally unstable, I'm just really depressed over how our world is. The nature of my depression is that of a more complex and philosophical nature, which is why i thought ATS would be a good place to post this.
Originally posted by TheEnlightenedOne
I have gone through some of the same feelings in life and trust me, discouraging yourself from what life can give you, is not the answer. I know that right now it seems that no matter what you do is 'useless' because no-one has or tries to have the common sense we all need to realize how messed up this world is. One thing you have that a lot of your friends/colleagues don't have is the fact that you already KNOW that this world is corrupted.
The only thing I can say to you is that don't give up on life. LIFE gives everyone an equal opportunity to excel in this miserable world, it is up to US to see that, and educate people on the negative things everyone concentrates on. I feel it is our journey to awaken people to feel and see what you see, but if you give up on those basic principles for yourself, how can you expect to change the world|people?
Hang in there, think positive no matter how challenging life turns out to be. Help others by helping yourself so that you can start making a difference in this world. BE A LEADER and NOT a FOLLOWER, lead those around you so that you realize that your knowledge is what is making this world a better place.
Every morning when you get up and go to school, say to yourself that TODAY you will make a difference in your life and in others. Don't get discouraged if someone don't listen to you or don't follow you, all it means is that THEY are not ready for change but YOU ARE.
Don't let that light you are seeing right now, diminish to full darkness. Keep that torch going and pass it around.
Be safe and take care!
Originally posted by rai76
reply to post by mossme89
I think you should see someone professional. If I read this I get afraid that you either do something to yourself or one day do some crazy act to hurt other people like take a gun to school or something like that. If at this ago you already feel worn out and look at the world like this, you should seek help immediately! Sorry this is my opinion.
Originally posted by mossme89
Originally posted by rai76
reply to post by mossme89
I think you should see someone professional. If I read this I get afraid that you either do something to yourself or one day do some crazy act to hurt other people like take a gun to school or something like that. If at this ago you already feel worn out and look at the world like this, you should seek help immediately! Sorry this is my opinion.
Trust me, that's definitely NOT on my to-do list. I'm serious about that. Not gonna happen.