Firstly, I don't think anything sinister is going on, so it's not going to be any grand claim of adbuction or spirits or otherwise. Secondly, I'd
just like to state what it feels like, what I've thought about it and reason with any of you interested in it.
Anyways, I am a sufferer of Sleep Paralysis - at least once a week and it sucks. I'd really like it to stop happening or at best, for it not to feel
What happens with me is that I'm normally dreaming of something quite mundane, like driving. Then something horrid will happen (I pass out at the
wheel and start careering towards a truck) The feeling of impending doom will horrify me to the point that I will hope its a dream - thus becoming
aware that it is a dream. Then BAM once, I realise it's a dream, I try to wake up and get this SUCKING feeling, like I'm being dragged somewhere (I
guess to sleep) - like whatever it is that takes our conciousness out of our body when we fall to sleep is still trying to do that, and my concious is
resisting it which is why I get the pulling sensation. And all this time, I think I'm screaming and flailing myself about the place. (Which I am not
- as partner always verifies)
Even though this happens to me regularly, I still forget for a while what it is I can do to wake up. Usually I just try to move something small like
my fingertips. But if it's a bad one (ie: fingertips isnt working) Ill say 'In Jesus Name' (I am not religious at all - I just figure its the most
powerful thing to say since the feeling is always so Evil and foreboding.) And I wake right up, think 'phew thank goodness that's over' turn over,
try to get rid of the horrible feeling and go back to sleep.
Now, I do believe the phenomenon is explainable by science. In terms of what happens physically, getting caught between sleep stages etc.. But it is
not called a phenomenon for nothing. It's just a major odd experience to have. It feel's so very surreal, infact the closest thing anyone could have
to a outer body experience that IS fully accepted and experienced by many.
The thing that makes me scratch my head, is that it is ALWAYS accompanyed with a sense of impending doom and evil. Why is that?!? I LOVE sleep, I've
no issue with being carried off into the land of NOD. So why when I become aware that I AM being carried off into the land of NOD do I resist it. Why
can't I let myself go? I have tried but it's like I submit a little and the sucking feeling feels so terrifying that I darent go any further.
Is it just a malfunction? Like a computer you have clicked everything on it to shutdown but it's still faffing around and you have to shut it down
illegally? Is the sense of doom, from our reptilian brain (not the alien type) the fight or flee part of our brains... We can't flee mentally so we
fight it? We just feel out of control and panic?
Anyone got any thoughts? Own experiences? I'd love to hear them.
PS - I am quite a normal, healthy, happy person. I've had no real trauma in my life. So I can't even blame life for these nightmare/episodes