reply to post by bogomil
That was a very intelligent answer. I am afraid I can't give an equally impressive response, but I can at least show you were I am coming from. Yes
I am a christian. yes my parents told me about god/ gave me a bible. No I wasn't forced to go to church, in fact both my parents are/were very
liberal. They grew up in the 60s as hippies, well at least mainly my dad, my mom is from a large mexican family. They both smoked pot, and I did
also, with both of them in my teens. In fact, my dad took me to my first concert, I saw KISS when I was 4.
So the fact is, there was no indoctrination when I was younger. I thank them for that. They merely demonstrated what they believed and only answered
when asked about such questions. And boy did I have questions!
You see, I am/was a solipsist. I started out real young believing I was the only "real" element of my existence. I discovered my inner voice when
I was 6, and I would often contemplate things deeply within myself as if I was having a conversation, relationship with another entity. That entity,
was my consciousness.
Progressing in my teens I started to dabble in '___' and mushrooms. You could say I was addicted, for quite awhile. I soon embraced the belief (or
lack thereof) of Atheism. At one point I even thought that '___' made me "superhuman" and clairvoyant, that somehow I could tap into other
Its very easy to get lost in psychedelics, getting lost in your mind coupled with strange and exciting music, throw in the fact that I am/was a
solipsist and what do you get? Well the rest you can infer.
After I graduated from high school, I moved out into my own apartment. It was at this time I became fascinated with UFOs. And then it started. The
more and more I would think about these things, spend my time researching, the more I would see strange stuff in the sky. I would at times walking to
my car at night from college or work would see strange stars appear and seem to "tag" along in the same direction as I drove. on one occasion I
actually followed one of these things that kept sinking closer and closer to the earth into a forest. I dared not follow the rest of the way!
It wasn't long before my dreams started to change. I began having out of body experiences, levitation, whispering, strange lights in dark room,
sleep paralysis, false awakenings. Needless to say it wasn't long before I decided to give the UFO stuff a rest! No sooner than I quit all that,
the activity stopped abruptly.
It was these experiences that caused me to question my perspective on things. So I didn't just pick christianity out of all the different things in
the world, I had weighed all general opinions and made the logical choice for me. I am not here to convert, but only give testimony for what I
believe when I asked. I defend others when I feel they are being picked on for their beliefs (such as on here or in this thread) or correct people
when I feel they are spreading lies themselves. I am a protective person, and I feel many are misled, I just am here to help.
So my experiences, to the skeptic, is the aftermath of heavy psychedelic use, and thats objectively speaking. Thats fine, anyone can rationalize all
they want, whatever makes them comfortable is fine with me. You have to live your life, not I and I really can't be bothered with what people think
in their heads.
I been there, done that, walked through the valley of Atheism and came out an enlightened man. My journey is far from over, and I hope that yours
isn't either. thanks again for your reply and understanding.