reply to post by mblahnikluver
I catch myself having to "hibernate" for a week or two after I've been to a social event. I mean, literally. It's as if my energy has been
sucked completely out of me, and replaced with stuff that isn't mine. Sorting through all that "stuff" that isn't mine is what knocks me on my
rear for a week or so. This makes it extremely difficult if I can't get away to do this. If I'm in a situation where I'm constantly having to be
around people with no break, I will literally get physically ill and fatigued beyond belief.
I sincerely wish someone out there who knows something about this would help me out....I don't know how to protect myself from this, and it's just
getting more and more intense. These days, if I happen to make someone mad and they are mulling over me, it's like having a megaphone in my head. I
know every thought they're having about me, and when they're having it. I'm a pretty nice person, so thankfully I don't make many people mad.
However, people seem to be very on edge these days as well, and getting them to that point is super easy. Something innocent may piss someone off
without me even realizing it, even if they never tell me. Oddly, this is how I know, because they invade my head to the point where I know exactly
what it was that I said, (and was taken the wrong way), and I know exactly why they took it the wrong way.
So now, I've taken to trying to make this work for me in the sense that if this stuff comes to me in one direction, then it must also work if I send
it back to them. As strange as it seems, I spend a lot of time apologizing and sending loving thoughts to people, but only because the angry and
jealous thoughts are the most painful for me, so I notice them more. I literally have entire conversations with these people in my head, saying the
same things as if we were speaking in person, until the emotions subside.
I know...that sounds nuts, even to me as I'm sitting here typing it. I don't know what to say, other than it's very real. No, I don't have
mental issues, or any history of mental issues. In fact, I'm a very "normal" person if you were to meet me face to face. Nobody knows this about
me, except my spouse to a small degree. Typing it here is a heck of a lot easier than trying to explain it with a straight face and expect the other
person to understand and believe it. So I generally don't even try. But I feel very alone with this, and I can't help but wonder if we're all
experiencing this to some degree and just not talking about it out of fear, or if it is localized with certain individuals who are more "sensitive"
to energies of all kinds, to include thought and emotional energy. On that note, I also am extremely sensitive to the earth's magnetic energy flow.
I hear the earth's tones, and I feel the electromagnetic energy when there's a build-up before an earthquake. I also feel the energy from
barometric weather changes. I know when the weather is changing without ever walking outside, or even seeing a cloud in the sky. I feel this in my
head.
I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing....well, it's bad when I get bombarded with negative stuff, obviously. I just know that I need
to learn how to protect myself and use this effectively for something good. I just have no clue how.