Originally posted by Blaine91555
reply to post by Symbiot
I think we all at one time or another drive ourselves mad asking ourselves questions like if the Universe is finite, what lies beyond or where did the
Universe itself come from. My Faith however comes from other things that would be wasted in a post here.
Is there a God? Yes.
Am I sure? Yes.
Wow, I have gone a long time never meeting someone else who gave this answer. Now I wonder how many people can say that? Maybe there are a bunch of
us?
I realize my own experience can never be used by someone else to prove the existence of God, but here's my deal and I share it freely.
I was born to an atheist and an agnostic. I didn't get much religion at all when I was young. But I had friends who were religious -- one of them
was in a cult that believed California would slide into the Pacific in 1984. This did not happen, obviously.. but that friend was very adamant that I
think about joining his religion, because if I didn't, he thought I couldn't be saved.
I didn't really believe him, but he did make me start to wonder about God and religion.
I was a rational kid, so I said to myself, if there is a God, couldn't he tell me about it himself? I didn't see why not, so I just plain asked. I
got down on my knees and said something like, "God, if you exist, please tell me what you are like, because everybody says something different about
you."
I thought I would either get an answer, or I'd wake up without one, and either way I'd know.
I won't make a long story of it. I had a basic "near death experience" without having to go to the trouble of dying. I never saw him, but was
drawn up into what seemed like a vast opening universe of quiet excitement, stillness, peace, friendliness, and good humor. It is hard to put into
words, but I found that there was a
person in this vast opening universe who could answer my question without words. What he did was let me
see things from his point of view; in other words, he showed me what he was like through direct experience.
I know I can't prove that he was God, but I think anyone who had that experience would have had the same reaction I had -- I knew that he was God. I
recognized him. It was like, "Oh yeah!"
He wasn't anything like any description I ordinarily see given by the religious or the philosophers. I mean, they are right when they call him
awesome, but you have to understand, his awesomeness is simple and serene and infectious. He is awesome
toward you. He's proactively awesome
in your favor, and you feel it and feel awesome toward him. I mean, worship as you see it in a church seems so hollow in comparison. I should not
knock it, because we live here without direct knowledge of that experience. Still, church has never been an easy place for me because I just don't
get the same vibe.
Anyway, I realize people have trouble believing he exists because of our crappy world. I think our world is the way it is because he has given us all
free will, and he will not break it for any reason, because if he gives his word, it's forever. But he loves each one of us more than even our
parents could. I also got the distinct idea that he doesn't expect anything of us except to learn and grow, and he
knows that we will.
If anyone thought there was an angry fellow in the clouds, I did not meet that guy.
People look at the world and see how messed up it is and they say there can't possibly be a God, but you have to see it from his point of view --
we're just little kids. We make messes and beat each other up sometimes. When your three year old draws on the wall, you do not send him to the
basement forever.
I didn't see any hint of anger, jealousy, or any negative thing in him.
I realize that I might have been mistaken about certain aspects of what I experienced, but I know the experience was real, because as it receded,
there I was wide awake in my bedroom.
I've never had another experience quite like it, though God continues to be very kind to me, even to the point of answering questions of mine in
dreams when I ask for them directly. He has never asked one thing of me. I've got to tell you, I love him. I feel a fierce loyalty to him, but I
do not feel dogmatic. I don't think anyone else has to believe if they don't want to. I'm sure things are going the way they ought to. I never
detect the slightest worry.
So, anyway, yes, I believe there is a God. And he is way cool.
I don't like to be denominational, but he did give me one piece of advice -- he told me to read the words of Jesus. I've read the whole Bible
since, and man, I just don't get into most of it. But the words of Jesus -- just the things he said. Those resonate. There's a real philosophy
there.