Originally posted by alien
As some here know me, they know I've had some experience with the gang lifestyle...won't go into specifics, as thats in the past...best kept
there...but...I found it fitted what I was looking for at the time...an identity, a family. But thats all it was...a replacement for what was lacking
- in my life and in myself.
There ARE some pretty standup dudes in most gangs...but the sad thing is from what I saw predominately it was all bullshyte. It was all just
insecurity masked with aggression...covering up for their own inner weakness...acting tough and throwing down on someone just to prove how much of a
man they were when in fact being a mans got nothing to do with who you beat down. Being strongs got nothing to do with how you hold your turf or who
fears you...thats fake, thats empty, thats plain bullshyte.
Fear is not respect. Fear is not strength. Fear is fake.
True strength ain't about being hard...its about being strong enough in and of yourself to be soft. Its about offering a hand up, rather than a beat
down. But when you're in the scene your sense of perspective is perverted...its what you know...its ALL you know. Thats life...and the thing is that
not only do you not tend to see any other way of living...for some you wouldn't even WANT any other way of living. As wicked as it is...thats what
you know...thats your lot...or so you believe. So your definitions of what IS strength are all fecked up...its like "Yeah bro, drunk blah blah,
smoked blah blah, hooked up and bashed over blah blah...HARD!" But thats how it was/is...so I ain't gonna hate on someone still in the scene.
Thankfully I got shown another way and shown I did have an identity apart from the patch I wore on my back...walked away from it all and now work as a
Community Mental Health Worker, specifically dealing with 'troubled' youth and also working in Youth Drug and Alcohol rehab programmes...just trying
to get my younger 'brothers' clean and hopefully show them there is another life there if they want it.
Peace,
ALIEN
Strength is Loyalty within a gang or crime syndicate, it is loyalty and power...but for those outside the orginisatiob or gang, fear is one of the
only things that give people "respect" for them, it is a different kind of respect sure, but it still is a respect, like people respect any Mafia
because of how big, rich and powerful they are.
When I was a member of a Mafia, even though small, and not much heard of, I had respect, not many people messed with me.
If sombody is in a Crime Syndicate or Gang, you dont want to mess with them because you know if u mess with 1 of them, your eventually gunna have ALL
of them after you, THAT is a type of respect.
Here's an easy example, when you were/are at school theres usually a person in your age group that is tougher than the rest of the people in your age
group, you dont mess with them, because you know he is tough and could easily have you in a fight (unless you are quite tough yourself) and you
respect that person for that.
There are many different ways to "respect" a person, try not to use it as a general term.