well, it seems that the only safe and reliable option (known to me) to explore this reality or this illusion we live in and other realities is through
look it up in depth, folks. here's a good thread on the experience: www.entheogen.com...
It is becoming increasingly difficult for me to tell myself that what I have been experiencing with Salvia extract is not actually real or authentic.
During the experience & immediately following it there is some part of my mind/consciousness that tells me “You know what that is, you know that is
real.” Once some time passes my rational, sober, day-to-day state of mind returns and I tell myself “There’s no way that can actually be
real”. Also, the fact that there are other people who are having these very similar experiences with Salvia makes it hard for me to just write it
off as my “brain on drugs”. At the end of the day I don’t believe it’s real, but I’ll be damned if it doesn’t seem like it is! It seems
just as real, if not realer, than this Life/Reality.
This week I did 2 deep journeys and did something a bit different than I usually do. Most of the times I’ve used Salvia have been with my eyes
closed and in a completely dark or mostly-dark room. This time I made a point to leave the light on & keep my eyes open because I wanted to know if I
would actually see what I usually see. I wanted to be able to tell if what I have been experiencing was only taking place behind closed eyelids in the
Both of these sessions consisted of pre-loading with a bowl of plain leaf, smoked at once into one huge hit (I have iron lungs)…I waited a few
minutes…then proceeded to smoke the “real” bowl. Both times I used a mix of 5x, 15x, and topped each bowl off with a small pinch of 30x. I still
cannot believe what happened next. It is difficult to actually put into words since we don’t have language to describe this process but I will try
my best. Both of these experiences consisted of the same exact thing happening, basically the same thing that happens to me every time I smoke now.
I’m sitting there in a comfortable chair which has a cushioned back & a cushion to rest my head on, looking around at everything in the room while I
hold the last hit in. Within seconds after I exhale everything starts to get that “fake plastic/waxy” look to it. All of the sudden I feel this
strong sensation of something either opening or turning along the side of my body and it felt like something was literally scraping against the side
of my body, I soon realized it was one of the turning gears/cogwheels. Before I know it everything starts to lose depth and what I am looking at…my
reality/my field of vision/whatever you want to call it…begins to turn into this completely flat “sheet” which starts to become TRANSPARENT. It
was like my Reality became see-through wallpaper. Like I was looking through a clear painting.
So now I'm staring THROUGH my room which is now completely flat & see through…and on the other side of this I see the same #ing thing that I have
been seeing for quite some time now. I SEE ROWS OF THESE TURNING/ROTATING GEARS/WHEELS AND A BUNCH OF THE SAME EXACT BEINGS/PEOPLE DOING SOMETHING. I
cant tell if these Beings/People are operating the wheels & making them turn or if they are watching over them, but whatever it is they are definitely
doing something. It’s like they are doing some kind of work. I cannot stress enough that these Beings/People are exactly the same every time I see
them. There is absolutely no variation in the way they appear from experience to experience. They look the same, have the same details/features, and
they move around in the same fashion EVERY SINGLE TIME. Same thing goes for the gears/cogwheels I always see. Like I’ve said before and I’ll
continue to say for the rest of my life…every time this happens it looks & feels as REAL as it could possibly be. Vivid, detailed, colorful, and the
movement is fluid just like what happens in this Reality. Every time I smoke now it makes me think that these Beings & gears/wheels are always there &
they are making Reality or Consciousness happen, producing it. It’s as if Reality is some sort of ever-present veil and when I get enough Salvinorin
A loaded up into my brain at once it allows me to see what is going on behind the scenes. It forces me to feel like I’ve found a way to temporarily
escape Life/Reality and see the truth, if only for a few quick confusing minutes.
The thing that I just cant get over is the fact that while everything in this Reality lost depth & became flat, there was great depth & detail to what
I was seeing behind this transparent/see through “sheet” or “veil”. The further away the Beings & wheels were the smaller they looked. The
ones that were close to me looked big. I was able to look off into the distance at the rows of these things turning/rotating. It’s no different than
if you were standing on a busy street and you looked off into the distance down the street. The buildings, people, cars, etc that were far away from
you would look smaller to you, everything close to you would look normal size. It’s just like that. Everything in this Reality becomes fake and the
turning wheels & Beings become real.
Now this isn’t even the strangest part. What happened next was even more bizarre and I just cant stop thinking about it. Off to my left, in my left
field of vision or the left side of my Reality, something happened. It was either one of 2 things…either a hole/gap opened up or part of my Reality
became unattached/unhinged from something. The best way I can explain it is that there was this hole/gap off to my left where I could see more Beings
& wheels and it was dark off in the distance…but I wasn’t seeing them through the transparent sheet. Then a few of the Beings/People that were
closest to me had to stop what they were doing & start dealing with what I had done. I saw them literally walk/march right up to “me” and this
hole/gap…they grabbed on to the edges of it…and started walking with it and were pulling/stretching it back! It’s like they were either closing
it up or they were re-attaching the part of my Reality that had become messed up. I cannot stress enough that this looked & felt ABSOLUETLY REAL. Just
like I have said many times in the past…I was seeing this happen in great detail, very vivid, with fluid movement. No different than if I was
watching something happen in this Life/Reality.
So they are holding onto “my reality”…pulling/stretching it back around me as they walk…and I could literally see my surroundings start to
wrap back around me in my left field of vision. Every time I have this type of experience they seem like they are slightly annoyed by having to do
this, not angry, but just inconvenienced. It likes they are sensing to me “Hey, you aren’t supposed to be here, you aren’t supposed to be seeing
this, now we have to deal with what you have done.” After they got done “fixing” it or doing whatever it was they were doing the experience came
to an end. Everything in this Reality started to gain back depth, the transparency slowly faded away & everything became solid/real again and before I
know it they are gone and I’m back, sitting in my chair, soaked in sweat wondering what just happened. Every time I smoke a high dose of extract now
all of the experiences end this same way. When these Beings/People get done doing something to me or my Reality & get done performing a task.
One other thing I want to touch on regarding these experiences is I remember that I was speaking out loud to Beings/People, trying to ask them what
was happening. I don’t remember everything I was saying, but I know for sure that I can speak coherently when using Salvia now. I plan on recording
myself in the future to help me remember what happens & what I say. One thing I do remember yelling was something along the lines of “Are you guys
going to fix my stuff?”, which makes me laugh when I think about it. The reason I asked this was because it seemed like things were so messed up
since everything was flat & see through…I was afraid that nothing in the room I was in was going to work anymore. I thought it was all ruined
forever. When people say that it is impossible to speak during a deep Salvia experience that is not entirely true. Most people cant, but that
doesn’t mean that ALL people cant. Also, this whole thing about “Levels 1-6” is a bunch of nonsense, in my opinion. I find it comical how many
people buy into that (along with the Lady Salvia stuff). This Level 1-6 thing is just something that one person made up and now everyone believes it
and talks about it like its some type of solid fact. For me there are only 2 levels now. A light dose and I remain here (Reality)…a heavy dose and
I’m there (the gears/wheels & Beings). Simple as that. It is impossible for me to have any other type of experience with Salvia Divinorum now.
Believe me, I’ve been trying. Once you cross the line there is no going back apparently.
I’ll never be able to stop thinking about these experiences I’ve been having with Salvia extract. I could live to be 200 years old and I’d still
be laying on my death bed wondering “Who or what were those Beings and what were they always doing to me? What the # were those turning
gears/cogwheels all about?” Salvinorin A is just utterly bizarre stuff. That’s really the only thing we know for certain about it. I would love to
know the true reason why this molecule causes these types of realistic experiences when loaded up into a Human brain in large amounts. It is something
more profound than just a general statement of “It affects the kappa opioid receptors of the brain.” That really doesn’t tell us anything at all
about the actual experience.