posted on Sep, 8 2010 @ 09:40 PM
You have caught me in a fragile state. It's not all the time that a man gets his heart twisted up. My baby left me. She took a flight, it was a
one-way ticket. Hurrying to nowhere, fast. Maybe she's a running, a running, a running, like a sinnerman. But all I know is she is gone baby, gone.
Now I am all alone in this world that is so cruel. Misfortune doesn't do business based on zip codes, why don't some people get it. Maybe it's like
how a person can try and survive the winter by padding the walls with insulation, if you have enough insulation you might never get cold. Don't try
and sell me the Brooklyn Bridge, and I don't want the stuff they use to build the space shuttle either. I am a rugged individual. It's just
sometimes I ain't, errr, I'm not so, errr... sometimes I lack a substantial degree of mental acuity and I lose things. And so what if I lose things,
I want to be perfect. I refuse to accept things as possessions, that includes people. You know? And I refuse to try so hard because why should I
try so hard you see trying that hard only means I am fooling myself into venturing out beyond my natural capabilities to achieve something I shouldn't
have in the first place. You see how hard it is to explain but I assure you my logic is infallible. My logic is precise. My premises are without
fault. I'm well versed in the principles of epistemology. Of the epistemology of everything and that goes without saying because if you understood
epistemology you would know. Inherently I also know a bunch of stuff, not just the greatest writers of the 19th and 20th centuries and the
inescapable delusions of the modern man all of which have been my duty to conquer. I am not an arrogant and loveless genius though I can't prove it.
I like to gamble and I may be an alcoholic, I don't think I'm such a bad guy, I also have disturbing thoughts invade my mind at times but those are
just leftovers from the collective unconscious. After all bad people have such a hard time admitting they are bad and I accuse myself openly to let
all the world judge my soul. Aren't I interesting? Perhaps there is no room for my baby beside my pride. Perhaps it was the devil that coaxed her
into leaving. I could in a short while have battalions at my command without my baby. But one needs to achieve all that which is impossible to
achieve to be successful in that higher sense of the word. And no amount of commanding, no appeals to duty, no testaments to the immortal beauty of
the soul will bring my baby back. No meaningless suffering of an individual. No pronouncements of unwritten law. No reverential piety to the power
of love. Well maybe some reverential piety to the power of love because my baby can't resist that stuff. But it is not about my bag of tricks. I
know for sure it is not about my bag of tricks. You see it is not enough to try and be something in the world or try to pretend to be something in
this world, one has to actually be something in this world. Like not thinking you are doing something or being a certain way but actually doing the
thing and being the thing. You know? On that note my baby has become something different I know for sure. Me myself has haved havened I had done a
couple transformations myself since last time we saw one another. But this is all about how the world wants to transform us. There still must be
some aspect of our being that resonates on the same subtle frequency right? Somewhere in between the surreptitious and deceitful? I can look past
all that. I look past too much. I am a stubborn rugged man. Yet I am a serious man. I am a serious man. I can overlook everything but the
seriousness of the situation which is usually something altogether different. You know? Ok, I know it's out of my control. But I am still wondering
where my baby could be.
edit on 8-9-2010 by AProphet1233 because: (no reason given)
edit on 8/9/2010 by Mirthful Me because: Mod Edit: Restored Font.