posted on Sep, 8 2010 @ 10:23 AM
I don't know you, obviously, so I have no idea how worthless you really are. You may be a terrible person that would be better off dead, though it
should be your liberty alone to decide on that. With that being said, you might be a wonderful person stuck in a rut. If you were a little bit older,
I'd be more inclined to trust your word on your own self-worth but the tender age of 20 years isn't nearly long enough to know yourself and your
potential. 20 can be a difficult age, as you still have not yet figured out your purpose in life, though you think you have. So, even if you are
worthless now (I'm not saying you are), you still really haven't even started your life yet so your allowed to be worthless.
I know this will sound kind of cliche but you need something to be proud of. You need to define who you are and what you are about. I know you
probably think that definition was already pinned but trust me, it's not. It's just a phase that we all go through at least until we are 25-30. Some
of shed the phases earlier than others, though that has little consequence to over-all worth.
If you look around and you and you don't like what you are seeing, then change it. I know that's easier said than done but striving to achive that
change, no matter how large or small, is what will give your life purpose and self esteem a boost. You won't figure this out until much later in
life, but it isn't reaching the goal that will matter, it is the process of striving for it that will ultimately tickle your pickle. It isn't the
new pair of shoes that will define who you are, it is the process of trying them on and peering into the slanted mirror.
The point here, is that you are only 20 with a whole life ahead of you. A life that is not supposed to be defined yet. Your outlook now will not be
the same in another 10 years, regardless of whether you fail at life or not. Figuratively speaking, if I were you, I would start trying on shoes and
remember it matters not if you pick the wrong pair.
With all of that being said, I wouldn't take anything I say at value because put quite simply, you don't know be and more importantly, I don't know