posted on Sep, 5 2010 @ 12:35 PM
I liked it. This is long I'm just going to write my stuff, I don't expect it to all be replied to if it loses your interest.
You talked about meditation and how we change. We really do change for the better over time it seems to me, I am feeling it more and more.
I had a situation like you were talking about where I met someone really different from me. I'm not in a big city like you so I don't get that a
lot, but I learned a ton. We could barely communicate properly, our jargon and approach to life was so different and we were just coming from
different perceptions and levels. But I learned a lot and realized I love that kind of thing, even though we aren't sure which doors might be opened
up and what we may have to give up about ourselves to keep the dialogue going it's very much worth it.
Ignorance is not a crime - I agree we are all ignorant in different ways.
When you observe yourself you are less hard on others, because you understand your own weaknesses and moments of weakness and realize we all have
them. Anytime I can see someone being judgemental or lazy I know that feeling, if I want to be hard on them I truly can't.
What bothers me is when someone who is older and should be wiser is that type like you said, scared to call the phone company or walk into a store to
pick up their pizza LOL. And this person instead of "wising up" over all the years just has learned how to be an "angry customer" this is the
same sort who you will see all but lose it over having to stand in line for a few minutes - they start sighing and mumbling to themselves and you
really wonder will they survive having to stand in line (EDIT: You know, while others around the world are starving to death).
A good analogy I like for this sort of fear that you talked about that is deep in us. Jumping in the pool. The first time you jump in your body is
yelling at you not to lol, but the second time it's better, the third time your body wants to jump in. But then next day, you are back to square one
Also about people that seem lazy. I come across as lazy to others and like I don't want to be there. Even when I had no place I'd rather be, I've
still had teachers, coaches, authority figures tell me I don't seem to be with it or be into what I'm doing, when really it's all I wanted to do.
EDit: It's like you said they might have hobbies or something that they are really into and work hard on.
I go home and read up on things, I sort of go in and out of effort with my dreaming - because I don't want it to become a discipline. But the times
I am really working on my dream recall and journalling, I am busting my ass. I'm getting out of bed every night 2AM and 3 AM and cutting the light
on so I can record some things, while my body is saying "NO! go back to sleep you fool!"
Just because all my efforts don't go towards something that makes money, or raises my social status, does not make me lazy. I work full time so I
work just as hard as the average person period - just because I'm not making an ass of myself to move up in the world that makes it a "problem."
See that's what bothers me because I think people somehow get it in their head that people like me are the problem, people who do not harm anyone, do
no crimes and just subsist. That apparently is not good enough, materialistically you have to be in debt and living it up, spiritually you can never
accept anything as "good enough" your state is supposed to be a constant state of hunger and drives.
[edit on 5-9-2010 by Novise]
[edit on 5-9-2010 by Novise]