posted on Aug, 30 2010 @ 09:41 PM
A good friend is hard to find..did someone famous say that? a song? well it's true.
I generally say I have a # of nice acquaintances (but I don't want them hanging around all the time.)
I live alone, and have on and off all my life. When I was 30 I was a passenger in a car crash that broke my back and disabled me. I was the 'belle of
the ball' for the one year I was in the hospital, but when I was released, I thought it was a different world. Where was everybody? I was still
disabled and I suppose no one wants to be saddled with that for a lifetime, not a daughter, nor 4 siblings.
I learned to be alone and like it, to value it, to write songs, learn the computer, drive a car again....that is, be independant.
Then 17 months ago, in my wheelchair, 40 years later, I was struck by a car and laid up again. Well I was prepared for it, and I have the greatest
Rehab Assistant. She is younger than my daughter, and at the present time is my 'best friend'.. there is somethng she has that I have never found in
anyone else...she, too, had gone through pain and Rehab, she, too, and her husband have been connected to Narcissistic Personality Disordered people,
as I was and my daughter was. That can really dump on one's self-esteem, but we've overcome that.
I suppose I can say that G-d is my friend, as I had only Gr.13 education, and where would I have been if He/She didn't mess me up so that I could sue
and finance my daughter's and my life.
My RA is also the only one who didn't make a face when I told her that at 46 my daughter discovered she is gay! I didn't either. I am just happy
that she is happy at last!
Life is what you make of what you have to work with and for these past 17 months (broken femur, 3 surgeries and PAIN) I have been investigating the
past and conspiracies, from the 1947 Roswell incident, to JFK, to the Moon landing, to 9-11 and the days just speed by as I heal every day.
Did I say that I now value my solitude? but a good friend is welcome!
[edit on 30-8-2010 by canadiansenior70]