life changing moment, page 1

My turning point, reading Nietzsche, what Nietzsche's writing has done for me is just to difficult to explain.

I'm quite young I must say, 16 actually, and we all know how a 14, 15 year old thinks and behaves, people at that age are really bothered with seeming extreme or rebellious, that had been my lifestyle for years, since my 14 I had been jumping from relligion to religion and from ways to think each one more extreme, Satanism, National Socialism, Paganism (in the violent way... like "kill the infidels and the enslavers"), but then someone told me about this brand new way of being extreme, through reading Nietzsche.

Now all this changes in my mind didn't change one thing, my denying of anything that would go against the way I thought in a time. I would turn down arguments based on biased opinions and even though I'd reckon they were right and I was wrong I'd like delete that from my mind and go on being sooooooo extreme.

But for the first time I read Nietzsche and about Nietzsche something must have changed because I was really prepared to open my mind to what this guy had to say, I only understood how important that would have been a later thou.

Basically what Nietzsche taught was intelectual honesty, that could be the first premise to all his thought, this changed me completely, I was amazed at the ambiguity and profoundness of Nietzsche's thought, what this ambiguity means is that he says that we must reach absolute freedom, but by accepting that we must reach absolute freedom we are renouncing to our freedom of not accepting to do so, the nihilism paradox is also common, you have to BELIEVE thal BELIEFS ARE WRONG. Just as you have to accept the TRUTH that THERE IS NO TRUTH.

The only way to do so, to be mentally prepared to do so is to be really intelectually honest with yourself and your way to view life and your way to realate with the ways life relates to you, kind of hard to explain with my half-decent english speaking skills but I hope you understand.

To conclude all this has deeply changed by value system, a brand new way of see life, and everything I have writen here for example has made me think about everything I believe in again, everytime I say something seriously I honestly think about what I am really saying and everything I see has a deep effect on me, this is intelectual honesty, one of the values I praise the most.

Also in Nietzsche I came to find lot's of brand new ways of thinking, brand new waysof seeing things, Antichristianism, Nihilism, the Overman, the Death of God and it's impliements in the Human race and in Human evolution.

Btw, deleted, know what? I was really really touched with your post.