posted on Aug, 21 2010 @ 08:10 PM
I agree with those who state that the n-word shouldn't be used. I've rallied against the use of the word most of my life. There are two
situations in recent times that remind me of the impact of the word.
Mr. Blackie. He died two months ago. His name has been "Blackie" as long as I've known him -- 17 years. His given name was Douglas.
Blackie was a ship's cook when he was younger and went to sea. In later years, the n-word was in his vocabulary quite a bit. It was
disconcerting to me to talk with him, because he used it so much. I asked him once -- after having talked with him many years -- why he said it so
much. He told me (rough approximation of Blackie's speech) "y'know, I tink when I's younger, I tink dat if I say it alla time, it not bite so
much and I not get so vexed it others say it." He was a self-made man, and he was a hard man to work for. Blackie was 89 years old when he died,
and was chopping bush four days before his collapse and subsequent death.
Just last week, I stopped at a park on the way home. It's not really a park -- more of a wide spot in the road with coconut trees -- but we call it
"pop-a-top-park. I was talking with some of the guys, and one guy says to me, "Hey! You's a big man..... I wanna pay you $25 to pop this
[n-word] inna mouth. He's been on me all day." It was a joke, of course. I didn't feel like laughing though, and I told him....... "sure,
$25, that's a good wage for two minutes work, but I have to first object to your language. I don't like that word." The brown man in question
said, "oh maaan, him just poppin' his mouth. Doan you worry 'bout da word. It's justa word an' doan mean nothin'."
The whole thing bothered me. The n-word is used casually on this island. It's not used to describe black people, but used to describe worthless
people. It bothers me still. I wish it weren't used at all. There are SO many good words.
Perhaps here, on this island, where skin tones don't matter one whit, it can be used without rancor, but I still don't like it. I don't think
I'll ever be willing to tolerate it.