posted on Sep, 11 2010 @ 03:13 PM
I've experienced what I call "Sleep Paralysis Disorder" many times since a very young age. At around age 7 or so, I wasn't aware of any scientific
explanation (obviously), but at some point in my teenage years I became retroactively aware of the condition in my past experiences (strange
"hallucinations" which I never dared to tell my parents out of fear of being labeled crazy.)
At around age 14 or so, I had my first "conscious" episode...where I was aware that I had just waken up and was unable to move my body. The
"popular culture center" in my brain immediately came to the conclusion: "I'm being abducted by aliens." It was frightening at first, but
subsequent episodes taught me how to have fun with it.
Several years later, I did research on the topic and found out that this is actually a quite common occurance in the population.
One thing I've learned about this "disorder" is that I'm always able to move my eyes, but not my body. I'm able to look around the room, and look
at the various hallucinations which manifest within my conscious perspective.
I've also learned to exit such episodes on command. The trick: focus my eyes. When I focus my eyes, it sort of feels like a "rippling" throughout
my brain, as if my eyes just commanded my subconscious to "let go of command." It works every time.
Now I don't have any real scientific insight to give towards this topic, but I wanted to describe an even rarer condition which I've also
First let me state that I've witnessed, with my own two eyes, an Ambien user get out of bed, easily navigate a kitchen, and make a sandwich - all
with eyes closed and seemingly in deep sleep: sleep walking. The fact that you can even have a conversation with this person, which they won't
remember, is amazing. The fact that this person could even navigate a hallway, a kitchen, and make a sandwich, eyes closed, without bumping, tripping,
or dropping anything is even more amazing.
This is where it got spooky. I've never used Ambien, and the following event happened before Ambien was even on the market.
One time I experienced a Sleep Paralysis episode where I actually witnessed my own body get out of bed and start sleepwalking. I call it "Conscious
Sleep Walking Paralysis." I'm almost positive this is where the religious community gets the concept of "possession" (and subsequently the
practice of exorcism), because that's exactly what it felt like.
In this rare episode, I was aware of my surroundings, and aware of my body, but I wasn't in command of my body. My body was doing it's own thing: in
this case, getting a glass of water and returning to bed. This wasn't a dream. I had a roommate to verify what happened. He said my eyes were closed,
but I'm 100% positive I was visually aware of my surroundings. This was a legit sleepwalking experience, in which somehow, I was able to remain
conscious of the entire experience.
The crazy part is, after my "body" returned to bed and laid down, it was almost as if I was "pulled into" the subconscious. Pulled into the dream
in a way. I could actually feel this happening...almost like some sort of subconscious teleportation. It was interesting to say the least.
Any way, I wonder if the "presence" we feel while in a Sleep Paralysis episode is some sort of manifestation of our own subconscious, conscious, or
perhaps even some sort of "third subconscious."