posted on Aug, 18 2010 @ 09:10 AM
I see this will be a wonderfull thread that will have a big effort to us all and is quite the opposite than most of the anger and fearmongering
threads on here. Thank you for that!
(But i hope it wont vanish like other did before... Mostly the hate and fear threads show up on the hot and top...)
So everyone that want to spread light and love should flag this to bring it up to the front and say: "We are here and full of love! We are thousand
times stronger than you dark fools!"
My life was not as happy as i would wish and when i look back i am proud to say that i am still living, that all the cr@p made me stronger and gave me
the will and power to go on ´til today...
Well, but lets have a look into my happyest moments:
Surely one of the best ones where 2006 at the soccer cup in germany. I am a rapper and got an inviting to make a gig short before a game in the arena.
32.000 people staring at me and hearing my songs. They flipped out when i played my "WM Song", i absorbed all the energies sended to me and felt
like a king or more... Wow!
Short after it i decided to make a second trip (i was on a world trip short before) to switzerland visiting a friends grave and make a pilgrim to
Sitten, a little village called "Sion" before .... (My swiss friend stated this pilgrim is his last will for me...).
When there i went into a priory and had a night long talk with the prior... After that he invited me to have a meditation session in a cristalcave on
the near mountain (what was normally only allowed for the monks but i thought my friend has made the ways for me...)
I did. And it was the most sacred moment i have had (til now!).
First it was a very amazing place. Crystals all over the cave and
a view over the mountainworld of Jura.
There was a little shrine in the back and a place to sit in front of it. Candles all around, a small fire place and firewood. First day was more about
exitement about this ""find" and i wasn´t able to get the concentration to come into a meditative state as usual. But early in the morning a monk
came in and brought me some food and fresh water. I asked him if he did this here and if he has tips for me. He just grinned and went away.
I was confused... The second day i started to meditate, viewing to the shrine. It was just normal as everytime and as i had no instructions i did it
as usual. Concentrating on a certain symbol or point to get the full focuss on it. But nothing special happened... I started over and over again but
(As i am not religious i felt a bit uncomfortable with the shrine, anyway...)
Next day the monk plus another one came again and brought me more food than the day before and more fresh water.
I told him about my disbelief in christian symbols and asked him again if he had some tip for me.
This time he talked: "First, all the christian symbolics represent a knowlege that is far beyond of what i am thinking they are. And second, don´t
focuss on the shrine. It is your backing. Expand your view. Expand your conciousness to everything that is..." Then he went away, grinning.
Okay, i would give it a try. I turned around to the opening of the cave and this time i blended out all the symbols and else...
I expanded my consious mind from a little point of concentration to my body (did that before, tho it was merely easy), then i expanded it to the
crystal cave. I felt a resonance i never felt before. It was a special kind of vibrating and i had a vision of a few, maybe a hundred monks that where
doing the same as i did.
Most of them seemed to have same visons like i had in this very moment but i felt that they have failed. But there where two that where other. i felt
a kind of happyness and light streaming through them and after they had this they, where jumping up and where running down the mountain. Happy.
I tried to focuss on their happenings but it vanished few times, when i tried.
Tho i had a hint. There was something to them i had to figure out. I slept in. Next day i woke up early (as usual with the first sunrays) and i
thought i got it. I ate a bit of bread and and started to meditate. I quickly came to the situation from the day before and i tried to enter the
akasha chronicles (did it before) for this place, but shortly i noticed it was a dead end. Tho after a quick lunch i started again at the point of
expanding my view. my conciousness embodied my body then the cave. The i expanded to the mountain i was in. i saw the world around like i am the
mountain itself! and then i came quick. I embodied the whole viewing field, the whole countryside the whole continent the whole earth, the moon, the
other planets, the whole solar system, galaxy, all the other ones, the whole!
I was one with everything! I was happy! I was ... LOVE!
It stayed for a moment and then it went in reverse, but like i was seeing it starting from the beginning to today! Wow! It was amazing!
I just wanted to run down to the prior and tell him everything i undergone but there was a stopping feeling inside i couldn´t explain. So i followed
it. I drank a tea and tried to understand what i just have expirienced but it was too much. I felt asleep.
I think i have slept for a whole day, when i was waked up by the monk. I tried to explain to him what i have encountered but i couldnt describe it
well. But he just grinned and said: "Now you have to let your ego go! You have entered the one. You know how it goes. You are very talented. my prior
said it to me, you will be different. yes you are! Go on. do the next!"
And i did. err... i just see i have not enough space to desribe it in one post tho i try to shorten it...
The next day i didnt do anything as i had to figure out what just was happening to me. I felt connected to this supreme source, i felt connected to
everything around me and much more i felt... the energies flowing! ( Kinda like neo in matrix at the one scene!)
I... no there was no i anymore! I couldnt remember anything out of my life, but it was irrelevant i was one with everything! No i just was!
Well to make it short in the next two days i was going through a transcendention of myself. I felt i wasnt I anymore i was more my higher self that
started to create a new ego for me. This is now what I am. Memorys came back but they aren´t important for me anymore (more for others to have
something to tell to them).
So since this time i felt to be in harmony with nature and it provided me everything i needed.
I AM HAPPY!