Mirrors or reflective surfaces like windows and water are things that I tend to avoid at best. I’ve always seen Them in mirrors in a variety of
ways; from downright terrifying to curious and at times even amazing and beautiful. When I was a child between the age of 5-7 I decided that
reflective images and mirrors are some form of portal to another place They live, as if it’s a window for both parties to gaze through. The thought
this window/barrier at one point could break or weaken terrified me at that age and left me traumatized for mirrors.
The Things I saw varied from people I’ve never seen from various pasts based on their looks and clothing, Things that just look as dead as dead can
be (rotten skin, hollow eyes, etc), or how they looked on their deathbeds (wounds, medical equipment, blood, clear symptoms of disease).
I grew up believing the boogey man was real, my mother being a medium (as was her mother, and her grandmother) and most likely passed it on to me as
well. My experiences aren’t related to just reflective surfaces but I experienced enough of them to despise them.
My usual mirror routine is avoiding them just before and during the night and I usually race through the house if I have to pass one to get to the
toilet or another room. When I have to shower and do my hair afterwards I don’t look into the mirror. I just practiced long enough to do it blindly.
I’m not afraid of Them at all if I encounter them but it’s often the sudden scare and ‘WTF’ reaction I really dislike; you expect to see your
own face in the mirror, not the face of someone or something else. For some reason I also don’t like to communicate through mirrors either.
I don’t know what can be done about it, as I just experience it without any explanation. When I got older I tried researching the matter with a
‘ghost hunter attitude’ and started ruling out things that could have caused the reflection. Until this day I didn’t manage to do so as I
couldn’t find any valid explanation.
I even got tested for schizophrenia and other matters by shrinks to validate I didn’t suffer from hallucinations, nor do I have any mental illness
that includes hallucinations as a symptom. I don’t use hallucinating drugs, and the medication I received over the years for a physical condition
(which started approximately 10 years after seeing Them in mirrors) don’t make me hallucinate either expect a change in perceiving the world around
me differently but it only includes real and already existing objects I know that are present in the house.
I use mirrors by daylight and use that time to experiment with it. The best thing my mother learned me was and turns out to be the most important
thing; never be afraid of Them and don’t let Them mess with you in your own bloody house. I’ve gotten over that fear in terms of activity in the
house not related to mirrors, but mirrors still aren’t my favorite object to be around. I just keep experimenting to one day get over it and use
these events wisely instead of being a scared cat.
Don’t think it will help you much but well it’s my personal experience… Your not the only one having a trouble with mirrors at least