posted on Aug, 14 2010 @ 01:47 AM
I am an 18 year old boy, and I know that I am at the peak of my adolescence. I know everything will seem bigger than they actually are emotionally,
and the only reason why I can say this is because I have temporarily numbed myself emotionally by talking to my father about the situation and having
a small cry.
Okay, here is the scoop:
I have been in love with this girl for 18 months now; we dated for 6 months, almost 7 in a few days. I loved her before she even realized that she
loved me by an entire year, and I waited selflessly for her during that time. I was her best friend and a person who she could go to. She went out
with a few guys, mingled with others, me being one of them.
I broke up with two girls, one because she didn't want me to hang out with her and the other because this now ex girl finally confessed her love and
wanted to be with me. That was hard to do, but it was done. Then 6 months of bliss happened where we told each other everything, exposed everything
and broke down barriers. We fell more in love, made plans for our future together, it felt so real. I even fell in love with our child that wasn't
even in the works yet! We gave him a full name and a personality and roleplayed a bit, and it made me feel secure.
Then we started to drift apart, and fight, and after a few weeks of that, we broke up. She says that she wants to find herself, to love herself so
that she can love better. She said it is possible for her to come back to me, but I think that ship has set sail. I don't know if I can be around her
for awhile without feeling depressed, and I can't NOT talk to her or I will be lonely and depressed. I need help. I love this girl to death, more
than anyone I have ever known.
What do I do? Do I move on like the question asks, and if so how do I do that? Or do I wait for her like I did before?
I don't think I can do what I did before again, we got too close and I wont be able to stand seeing her with other people.