this is an awesome discussion.
i'm glad to hear these things from others in a quiet, out-of-the-way place, more or less.
i want to address a few things several of you said, so i'll do it one at a time to keep it orderly and making sense (hopefully).
i totally relate to what you are saying about the numbers. i'm not able to pickup up on numbers like you can, as divination, but i do understand the
underlying principles and can usually peg someone else's number(s) for them, but it's not intuition, i don't think. someone, who wasn't even
interested in these kinds of things, that i know of, told me how he saw people's personal numbers manifesting - in all the numbers that are
associated with a soul, in material experience, one (sometimes two) will stand out as predominant.
so i tried that, looking back on "my" numbers, which included every phone number and address i'd had, my ss#, even my nursing license#, etc. what
showed up for me was 3's and 8's. i really couldn't see that there were more 8's or 3's because they were pretty much neck in neck. so that's
why my ATS name ends in "38." and still the same two digits pop up more than any others.
i also have an understanding of general meanings/significance for each digit, but like i said, it's not at all the same as your gift.
and, too, i don't get much out of the traditional, or publicized, methods for numerology - they don't seem to fit although i don't have any
alternative to offer.
i was a nurse's aide, too, at an old folk's home, in my early 20's. i later went to nursing school and became an RN and worked for nearly 10 years
until the materialistic focus of health care began to clash with my conscience and i finally had to "retire." it hurt bad but it was the right thing
for ME to do. but i learned so much! not just the clinical nursing part of it, but so much about people, in general! and even about death, and by
it used to hurt my feelings that there weren't more aides and staff that seemed to really care, to actually want to sit down and hold hands with the
lonely sweet souls who lived in that place and others just like it, everywhere.
i'm so glad to know you were one of the exceptions - it's been a long time since then but i still think about those kinds of things and i'm glad to
know you cared, too!
this is also in response to what YOU said about numerology - i also know what you are talking about as far as what you discovered in reading the book
that you've recommended.
vibrational energies! yes! they are everywhere - they are everything.
the method for determining personal numbers that i shared, above, is evidence of the truth of that, imo. it took me many years before i realized HOW
that worked - i knew it worked with uncannily accurate results, but i just couldn't even guess why.
then i had some epiphanies related to other metaphysical ideas and i realized that we each send out our own vibrational fingerprint, so to speak, into
the aether around us. aether, to me, means simply the unseen information highway that i also think of as the fabric of spacetime - maybe to some it is
the matrix but i'm still not sure if that's what most mean when they say "matrix."
anyway, it works the same with names and all manner of similarities that we discover in our individual paths/journeys, and extends out into our solar
system, showing up in the art of astrology.
there are individual manifestations and then there is a larger fingerprint which is of the human race, as one.
i think of Tarot cards as being part of that larger fingerprint, as well as the underlying story behind all mythological systems of all peoples, in
all lands, and times. there is just one story and it is our story.
i digress again!
you mention the Chaldean system as being the most original and accurate system, for i'm thinking you mean gematria? but applied to persons instead of
text? at any rate, i agree with that, too. the Chaldean is the purest and most correlative system for linking the soundwaves of language with the
all is vibrational energy - in nature it seems to be usually split into seven main dominions but in that which is of man, 9 is the number of
of course, under either, there are countless, and maybe endless, little parts as fractions, or maybe fractals, and that is how every single soul is
individual and unique yet part of the one.
colors, sounds, numbers, planets, days, etc.
they are all just manifestations of the core energy/energies.
i haven't figured out much of what i want to know, but i'm well on my way to having the understanding i seek and i try to share what i've found but
it isn't always the right time, place, or audience, and indeed, discretion is the better part of valor.!!
i had to smile to myself, reading about you and your neighbor - i remember when i realized, suddenly and with surprise, that being on the "other
side" - out of body, between lives, has no bearing whatsoever on one's ability to understand the underlying truth of creation nor does it
automatically impart wisdom!
it was kind of like when i had a similar epiphany around the age of 19-20 when i was working as a nurse's aide, as i mentioned above, in an old
folk's home. up until then, i had been blessed to have fairly wise elders in my life, close family and extended family. but in the nursing home
setting, i encountered a larger sampling of the elderly population and it led me to realize that old age does not automatically bring the rich
sagacity that i had assumed.
there are many people who leave this world not much wiser, if at all, than when they entered as babies! i still haven't figured out what exactly this
is related to, other than the willingness to learn from all experiences - there's got to be more!
i do know that when a mistake is made, many people would rather make all kinds of excuses and use diversionary tactics on themselves to avoid facing
the simple idea that they made a choice that wasn't the optimum given the situation. instead of learning from it, they push it away, blaming it on
someone or something else. they have not yet realized that DENIAL is NOT a river in Egypt!
a lack of self-honesty results in limitations on self-learning. and that's just the start of the negative results of self-deception, which i won't
go into, here.
i'm sure you know what i mean.
what you said about "knowing" things, seeing more than the average joe, i think you explained well, although briefly. you gave it a good perfunctory
explanation. it is, indeed, just a little bit more color, if you will, in the rainbow, a little more detail in the common thread of information. it
doesn't come and go at our bidding, but is there when it is there, and sometimes it isn't there, and that's just the way it is.
the only thing i've ever been able to "stop" was dreaming. and by the same token, when i became curious about just what role dreams had in our
lives, i wanted to dream again. (or should i say, remember and participate in my dreamlife again)
and suddenly, i was dreaming again! that very night i remembered my dreams and it's been better and better ever since, because i am now willingly
seeking to explore.
this is to everyone reading this thread, and the OP, too, in general~
psychic is "of the soul."
we are all connected on the soul level - i guess there is something i could call the "human soul" that is a united singular thing, out of which we
the ability to tap into our collective root is something we can all eventually enjoy, or suffer from, whichever might be the case. i think for
everyone who already does, it is a combination of both joy and misery.
knowing things doesn't make life easier and it doesn't win the lottery. what it does do is teach that we are all humans and have the same basic
needs and desires. it also brings vicarious sadness and sorrow, and that part of it isn't usually what anyone seeks to discover.
it hurts. it is bad enough we have to endure our own sadness but the sadness of others is just as heavy, if not more so.
on the flip side of the sorrowful aspects, it also gives empathy and compassion and generally allows for one to know what it means to "love your
neighbor as yourself."
it is only a matter of time until that veil, that hides the fact that we are all connected, is completely dissolved. for some of us, that veil is long
gone. for others, it is fading by degrees even as we discuss it. for others, still, it is not even detected and in that world, the veil is solid,
immovable, and perhaps perceived as the "end" of reality - or at least that is the perception.
but the truth is the same for all. it is merely a veil, a curtain that might seem like a concrete division that cannot be passed through or seen
through or in any other way, penetrated by the senses. but it is just a mist, a smoky cloud that is a temporary obscuring safety net, in place until
each soul reaches some mysterious and still undetermined point in their soulful evolution which allows them, then, to cross over and begin a whole new
adventure of life.
my personal ability for divination - tapping into the part of me that knows more than i think i know, is tarot.
also, words are a big thing in my life - they are sounds, too, basically at the root. we don't really LISTEN to our language - even when we hear it
spoken, in our minds, we tend to "see" the word written out, in letters and shapes, rather than hearing it for the sounds that create its form!