reply to post by SonoftheSun
What I did find interesting is -
(1) You felt different from other people.
Feeling unique and different from others is a rather normal trait in all humans. Normal occurrence.
(2) You think you are an alien.
You feel disassociated with the human species, which means you might be trying to cover up a traumatic event.
Rationalizing the trauma by covering it up is a common occurrence. It is a rather normal combination. Normal occurrence.
(3) You explained a 'fight or flight' moment, which your memory seemed to have suppressed the events.
Since your body felt like danger was
approaching, your instincts caused you to take off running. It is rather normal for people who experience 'fight or flight' to block the events out.
You most likely hurt yourself unknowingly while running from the unknown. Normal occurrence.
(4) You went on a self-searching mission after surgery.
When people go through near death experiences, they normally do re-examine their lives.
(5) You had past life recollections, and you found yourself in the life of important individuals.
Here is where it gets a little tricky. Up
until this point in your narrative, everything you went through was mentally sound. If I were a psychologist, I would say -- "Your near death
experience (traumatic event) caused you to reevaluate your life. As a result of not being satisfied, you created an illusion in which you place
yourself as a central figure." (Other words, you have a slight touch of schizophrenia.) So, we move onward to see if it has progressed, so we can
determine exactly what is happening..
(6) You separated yourself from reality.
After reading that one portion about 'sending out thoughts and feelings', my first conclusion was
that there is something you do not like about yourself. I then realized that you are mentally escaping from something in life, which you cannot change
about yourself. Hmmm... You send out love and a need for belonging. Even though you have a family, you still feel detached from them. How is your
marriage or relationship with your kids?
(7) Finally, you revealed the actual issue at hand.
You meditated and created an image of a female. Something about your wife or daughter has
made you become detached. Was there an event that may have strained your relationships with family members? It would have to be a female figure. Why?
Your whole story was about love and belonging.
At the very start of your narrative, you took a few unrelated events and strung them together. Once you got to the last few events, they revealed a
very complex story about having interpersonal issues with a female member of your family.
Why did you see a planet? Well, it is rather simple. Since your relationship is too strained, you do not want to stay in your stressful environment.
You are trying to escape the situation. Did you end up getting divorced, or is your teen acting negative towards you because of adolescence?
Another though would be, did you witness a female friend die early in life. And, do you long to be in her presence again?
[edit on 31-7-2010 by Section31]