posted on Jul, 28 2010 @ 04:27 PM
Love the enthusiasm guys!
I have been on this journey... some say spiritual, that pushes on me, and has pushed me on for a long time now. I have known of this 'other place'
out there (or in) since i was a child and had extensive lucid dreams all throughout my childhood. As i aged the lucidity stagnated somewhat (im sure
there are other factors) and im lucky to go into real lucidity 1/4 a year.
As a pre-teenager i had my "awakening" experience when i found out nobody else lucid dreamed, and when i spoke to counselors at my school, they
discouraged looking in the library for material on the subject. And everyone else called me strange. I live in the bible belt... but never did i think
someone would actually tell me that it's a worthless topic.
I almost had to hide my interest in the nature of self in high school. Most of my questions on the topics got squashed with the, "You should come to
church with us this Sunday", which always seemed to end with a negative vibe and 'This is all the information you will ever (or should) need',
sounds like a cop-out to me.
The best way i can communicate the way a lucid dream feels is...
"This is how things were before i was called [insert name]" before my current identity.
This is still a shocking a frightening experience for me every time i have it. I then knew with every fibre of my being that 'things are not as they
seem' and that I can never unlearn that beautiful experience and i will never see anything the same way ever again. And preferred it.
The Baptists in my area were horrified when they heard that life changing statement above, I still wonder why exactly. I knew then that what i was
looking for was inside of me, and that i was looking for the same thing the fundamentalists were looking for, they just didn't believe me. As soon as
they learned i wouldn't "take back" what i had experienced i was basically told i was going to burn in hell. I took it in stride, that is what
they say lots of the time. Ive matured and so has my spirituality, but the game remains the same.
[edit on 28-7-2010 by RareSoLvent]