Thanks very much for the replies so far. I'm still working on the update, trying to get some research done on the property.
This update is about something that inspired me to actually make this thread. About two weeks ago, while chatting on ATS with some other members, I
agreed to do this thread. What followed that night was rather strange.
Some details -
I use a 3G Mobile Broadband modem to access the Net. I also have a medium gain antenna mounted on my roof to give really good reception. Since
moving out to the vineyard, I have never had anything less then full reception (5 out of 5 bars). Rain hail or fine, it's always full strength.
So, I was chatting away and somehow the topic of the Black Man came up. I agreed to do the thread and continued chatting.
Suddenly I got kicked out of chat. I looked over to my modem to see it flashing, trying to gain a signal. I opened my connection manager and saw the
reception bars going from zero bars, up to full strength again, and back down to zero again. This continued for about four or five minutes. What
happened during those few minutes scared the absolute crap out of me.
Suddenly, and without warning, while watching my modem cycle from no reception to full and back again, I began to feel an absolute feeling of terror.
Terror unlike anything I've never felt before. The hairs on my body started to rise, and for some reason tears began to stream down my face. It
was a completely passive release, without any of the emotions usually associated with crying. I have never experienced anything like it. The tears
were pouring down like a waterfall.
I began to get the distinct feeling that somebody was outside my window.
My body was absolutely frozen in place, and only my eyes could move around. This lasted for what seemed ages, but looking back was probably only a
minute. It was a terror so great that I was frozen in place. A terror that seemed to be used as a weapon directed at me.
Now, I've had a lot of training in dealing with high stress situations. I rock climb and go solo caving often, and in both of these situations you
simply cannot panic or let fear get the best of you. So to feel so swept away in this feeling was really strange to me. I did the only thing I could
do. I focused my mind (and this was terribly hard, it was like the terror was trying to stop me) and tried to calm myself down. I regained the
ability to move, but at that moment felt that to make any noise or move around would invite more attention from whatever was outside my window. Even
writing about it now brings goose-bumps up on my skin.
When dealing with anything spiritual, I always deal with them like they were any other person. I do not see any reason to pretend that they're
anything different from me. So I began to think - “Whoever you are get out. You are not wanted. My name is ****** and I order you to leave”
(see my Original Name thread if you want more info about this. And although I'll always use my name here on threads, my Original Name is for me
I repeated this several times, and with each repetition, could feel my ability to think getting clearer and clearer. I did not call upon any God or
spirit to help me - as I always do, I use my own name to give me strength. The feeling of this terror leaving was simply like a person walking away.
The further away it got, the less I felt consumed by it's power. It took a great deal of concentration to push this felling away.
Remember, while all this was going on, my modem was going crazy, flashing from full reception to no reception and back again. Once this feeling left,
my modem simply went back to full strength, and has remained so since.
One the terror left, if was gone. Simply not there anymore. I had no residual feelings, and walked outside to see if anything was there. I found
nothing. I came back into my room and went back on chat, where I told some others about what had just happened. And that was it. Even in high
stress situations, there is usually some residual feeling of something left after the event, but in this case – nothing. I slept well that night
and didn't wake once - actually dreamed I was a world class powerboat driver on snow, which was nice
Some points – All connections were secure and the aerial was in the same position as usual. While this was going on, I noticed my cell phone (which
is not connected to anything) was also doing the same thing.
See, I don't like to present this without any tangible evidence. The only thing I can do is get the chat logs from ATS and present them as some kind
of proof that something did happen. I'll U2U a mod tonight and ask if that's possible. Failing that, I'll get some of the people that I talked to
This feeling was totally unlike what I had previously experienced with the Black Man, and I personally do not feel the two are the same. I don't
like not being able to justify my beliefs in this regard, so I just have to go off my feelings.
I cannot stress enough what a powerful experience it was to go thru. Terror such as what I felt, that came from nowhere and faded again into
nothingness was an almost life changing experience.
But that wasn't the end of it. Now I had experienced the terror, I knew I could control it's power over me. So I wanted this feeling to come back.
But so far it has not. But now I always keep a camera in my room, ready to shoot. I can be rather aggressive when dealing with things like this,
and see it as no different from a person doing the same thing to me.
Any how I'll update tomorrow hopefully. Just wanted to give you a better understanding on why I made this thread.
And yes, studying Hat Men now as well. Thanks for all your input.