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Originally posted by Yummy Freelunch
This information was feeding a hunger for truth, for who..or what life is. And who am I.
I devoured everything I could on ufo's, paranormal, history, nature, science, etc...most everything except Hollywood jargon, I tried to stay away from pop culture information, such as People, or any news rag like that. I wanted to filter out the useless CRAP that most people read.
Originally posted by Yummy Freelunch
What you have written here is like a cloak of heaviness has been placed on me...somehow I know you are right.
The behaviors I make excuses for, mostly now, is drinking beer, A LOT! Especially on the weekends. I make excuses, and reasons why I feel it necessary. Or my fear of being in public. I dont like to leave the "safety" of my house.
I am not quite understanding what my next step is..but I want it..I want it so badly.
I have already become isolated. It is only me and my 2 children, for years now. I dont date..I dont desire that lifestyle anymore. All I do is seek information, its like im driven. I barely even eat anymore.
Very important point, this is where we bring it all together if you say “What was Adamus talking about today?” There’s a calling right now. It’s from within you this time. It’s not out there. It’s not Archangel Gabriel or Gabriela calling. And the call has been persistent, steady.
It’s you. It’s your … whatever you want to call it. I’m going to call it your Body of Consciousness because I don’t even like the word ‘soul’ anymore. It’s your consciousness, your expanded consciousness, your full potential of consciousness calling out. But you haven’t been aware of it for the most part. As a matter of fact, it’s been rather annoying, so you’ve tried to shut it off, much like you’d shut a window if there was a noisy car out front. You’re like, “What is that noise? It’s so irritating,” and it’s coming from within and you’ve tried to shut it out. The calling is from You to yourself.
The calling is, you could say, You wanting to come home to you, here now, not out there. The calling is for the integration, bringing together, living.
The calling has no agenda other than to reunite. It doesn’t want you to do certain things – don’t come back and tell me that this voice within wants you to walk naked down the highway at four in the morning. The calling wants nothing but to be with you; to share the experiences of life; to bring a level of passion with it that has been closed off for a long time.
It’s the Body of Consciousness that has been fragmented into parts that’s calling to come back together and it does it through you in this Now moment. In this no-incarnation that you now exist in, in this identity that isn’t from yesterday but is the I Am of today. It wants to come back.
Through your awareness, opening up, you’re going to really understand and to sense this calling. It’s been trying to call you up through your dreams, been trying to call you up with little nagging voices, little body aches and pains, little emotional discomforts. It’s been trying to get your attention, trying to get back to your awareness. Listen to it. It comes from within.
It’s not necessarily going to talk to you in words, not going to tell you what to do. This ‘You’ doesn’t want to tell you what to do, it just wants to be with you. It doesn’t want to say, “you have to take this job or be with that person,” because that would be absolutely contradictory to what consciousness and awareness is and who you are. But it’s calling. It’s there.
So, dear Shaumbra, take a deep breath and between now and our next meeting, be aware of it. And it may not be what you think it’s going to be. It may not feel like what you think it’s going to feel like, but it’s there.
Between now and our next gathering, dear Shaumbra, please realize that actually the world really is marvelous. We’ve gone through a lot of difficult times, but it’s a grand place. When you look into the eyes of other humans – no longer tilting at the windmills, no longer thinking you have to defend or protect anything, but you’re able to genuinely look right into their eyes – you’ll realize what a precious place this planet is. You’ll realize also that what appears to be chaos isn’t at all.
All really is perfect in all of creation, and particularly in yours