First of all, just let me clarify that I am a terrible writer. In other words, I have a hard time putting my thoughts into words on "paper", so
please forgive me if my writing is strung out. I also use a ton of Ellipsis in my writing, which I know irritates some people..it's just my style
Ok, with the disclaimers out of the way..its hard to decide where to start..but I feel a need to get this out now.
Im sure I'll be labeled a lunatic after this post, but I'll risk it.
Ive been here on ATS for a while now, and before I found ATS, I studied as much information as I could all over the internet, and books. Studied,
really isnt a good word, Id say devoured, absorbed...I just couldnt get ENOUGH information coming into my brain to suite me. This information was
feeding a hunger for truth, for who..or what life is. And who am I.
I devoured everything I could on ufo's, paranormal, history, nature, science, etc...most everything except Hollywood jargon, I tried to stay away
from pop culture information, such as People, or any news rag like that. I wanted to filter out the useless CRAP that most people read.
All my life, I had a feeling that I was "different", or that I didnt belong in society.
I dont have the same interests as most people I meet. I dont care about what clothes to wear, or how to look like a model. I dont care if I drive a
fancy car or live in a fancy house. These things dont interest me in the least. I wouldnt even care about money at all, if it werent needed to
I never knew there were others that felt this way until I found this site. I really felt alone, although I never really felt lonely. Coming here,
and reading other people's stories and experiences has broadened my once tiny spectrum of who we are, and what life is really about.
I have come to a conclusion..from loads of information...that, indeed we are slaves and prisoners on this beautiful blue planet. We, are in a
prison, within a prison. The flesh body, is also a prison for the beautiful "beings" that we really are.
Do you really expect me to believe that we have "evolved"? Or that some god just decided to create us from dust? Then set a bunch of rules
upon us, and would kill us or send us to a hell if we didnt obey?
Its ludicrous to even suggest such a thing, in my opinion.
I know in my heart of hearts..that we..ALL OF US..have come from somewhere else in the universe...my "home" planet might not be the same as
yours...look inside yourself..why is there so many diverse cultures, languages and races on this TINY planet? We are all flesh beings, but all so
different. We did not just spring up from the primordial ooze as a fish...we have been brought here..all of us..and enslaved. What I mean is..we
dont remember who we are..someone or someTHING is keeping us ignorant.
I know now..why the powers that be want to keep us downtrodden and warring against each other.
They are also puppets, although they dont realize it. They think they OWN this world and us..but they dont..they are also enslaved here..just like
the rest of us.
They are evil..we should not have to fight for anything we need..we should not have to fight AT ALL!
Food , shelter, basic needs should be a "given" and no one should be without. Money is a tool that they use to keep us imprisoned throughout
Sometimes I agree with that saying.."Money is the root of all evil"..its not the money, its the power that "they" have to wield it against us.
The lust for material things, is also another lie they project into our minds...its like dangling a carrot in front of a horse..new and shiny
things..just keep us like robots.."must have new plasma tv"...this becomes a focus in your daily lives, until you forget who you really ARE!!!!
You are not a being of material things..but of love..and light..and peace.
I have not found WHO I am, yet..Im hoping that some of you on here might be able to help me with that. I have not experienced being in the
spirit..although I have had flying dreams that I know I was there..out of body and in my "real" self.
It was the most liberating feeling..but Im always being chased.
Until we all awaken and learn to live in peace and harmony throughout this entire planet..we will never be who we truly are.
I looked in the mirror today and asked the reflection, "who are you?" It didnt answer back..but I know that somewhere inside me..is the being
that was created and never dies. Immortal...do you see that, WE are immortal..WE ARE GODS...
I guess, the purpose of this story, is to ask others who are learning, or HAVE learned who they are and how to break free from this enslaved
I need help, I feel Im on the brink of finding out..and im scared to step forward..but I NEED to..and just dont know how or where to take the next
I almost feel a relief..but a part of me just wants to cry..cry and mourn the person I "thought" I was..which was a lie..do you know what I
Please, if you have any information you can help me with, to find the door..Id greatly appreciate it..please feel free to add anything to this
thread. I have slowly been coming awake..and its time to take the next step..
Thank you for reading this and thank you for your posts.
Sincerely, A sister of the spirit