posted on Jul, 24 2010 @ 11:33 PM
Well, I'm not sure this is the right forum or not, but closest I could find. I am wondering the thoughts of different folks when faced with downright
aggression. I meditate and when I get frustrated with things or people, I repeat my mantra internally.
I try not to be violent back, or respond to threats and taunts, try not to inflame the situation. However, lately I've been really tested by a person
who threatened me with bodily harm, continues to taunt me, and I have no real recourse at this point other than to ignore it. Of course, I filed a
criminal complaint with the police and have tried to stay out of the person's way. Events are unfolding due to their actions so that they may not
be around much longer to bother me. (This is not a family member, friend, spouse, etc).
I try to not think about it, try to remain calm, and have do nothing violent in response or even talk to this person who still verbally abuses me from
a distance. Besides getting a restraining order, filing a lawsuit, all things I'm capable of, I'm wondering how to COPE. It has caused me to be very
edgy, scared, with loss of sleep, forgetful, etc.
I don't want to be cruel or mean in return (I truly believe in karma) but on the other hand, sometimes I have fantasies of things I would like to say
and do. This kinda bothers me. I'd like to "be above it all." I guess I'm still just downright human. When my spouse makes derogatory statements
about the person, I tell him that "that's not good, don't think that, wish that, etc." In some ways, I do have compassion, as I wonder what
would make a person become so hateful that they would do the things they have done. It makes me think they have been abused themselves.
On the other hand, I'm terrified of being by myself in public as I was attacked in public and believe this person has no self control. I carry pepper
spray with me at all times.
I believe there is a "lesson" here for me to learn, I want to pass the test.....but I'm not sure how. How do you go about being above the hatred,
not being afraid, and not being vengeful.
I have asked for help from higher powers than myself (the universe, GOD, my spiritual teacher). But the part of me that is scared wants to kick this
person's butt so I no longer have to worry.....it's a conundrum...