Originally posted by jdmmade
Has anyone here ever made any attempts at making contact with the beings? Anything that has worked or failed?
Firstly be careful what you wish for, I nearly suicided myself the shock was pretty much life changing and I am not the same I was prior.
The date was the 8th of May 2008: time about 03:00
I had been meditating in my garden on my back. I had been looking up into a very clear sky and it was filled with stars, my favourite kind of night as
it happens because I was a star gazer long before I could read. For about an hour I had been focusing on the bright star Vega and had been imagining
focusing a stream of light bathed consciousness up to the point where space meets the atmosphere.
I recognize that this sounds more than a little ‘wacko’ and that is fine but I had read at abovetopsecret.com that this was a good way to ‘zone
UFOs’ in. Though I was quite sceptical I admit that I have always had an open mind on such things and was thus determined to give it all a try just
in case it worked. I meditate a lot anyway ever since my days of living as an inpatient at the Queen Elizabeth Military Hospital in Woolwich London
(nearly two years an inpatient there). Meditation and art therapy had become a part of my psychological healing process for the length of time I had
lived there. I therefore had nothing to lose by trying out this new meditational practice I had read it out and maybe much to gain. At least that was
how I rationalised it all at the time I read this technique in a thread I had been participating in at the time.
Anyway I was focusing my mind or consciousness up into the sky, imagining a thin beam of thought or energy coming from my forehead, powered by my Ajna
chakra and spreading out in a disc like oil on water hundreds of kilometres above me. When I was satisfied I was doing this correctly and satisfied
that I was able to maintain this concentration I began asking for contact and at the same time as I asked for contact I sent up feelings of good
intentions and a wish to see something that could blow away the many doubts I had on the subject of the UFO phenomenon. I believed there was something
going on and I believed the truth was being covered up but I am one of those types that needs to see to believe hence the reason I stopped being a
catholic and became a pagan/atheist whatever.
I was so methodical, so cautious in my approach that I sent up the crux of these ‘communications’ only as I breathed out. I was even careful to
make sure these silent words stayed within the imaginary disc I spread out at the top of the stream of thought I was projecting. I started with such
high hopes and yet after a period where all to be gained were the blinking of stars and the soft breeze that slowly began to chill my exposed skin I
came to realise that nothing was working.
Very disappointed I stopped concentrating after about an hour and more or less was about to give up and get up with an intention of going to bed. I
realise now that an hour is not long enough but I must concede that at the time I must have been exuding ‘an energy of desperation’ of needing to
know my place in the great scheme of things and something heard it or felt me.
Right at the moment that I was about to get off the ground there was a sudden flash of intense white light off to the left of where I had been looking
straight up. The flash of light was fast and lasted barely a second but it was very bright and got my attention fast. From this flash there was
suddenly a tiny but bright satellite and it was taking a path that would take it almost directly over my house.
At first I was thinking ‘coolio a satellite’ but I was also puzzled about the intense white flash it had come from and the diffuse nature of it.
Things took an even more bizarre turn as suddenly the satellite flashed a rich blue and VERY defined cone of light aimed toward the north. The light
was intense and like nothing I had seen before. It was of such a highly defined intensity it was almost a solid triangle. The flash of blue triangular
light lasted only split second but I was looking straight at it so there was no mistaking what I was seeing.
In response there was a second flash of intense white Omni-directional light exactly the same as the one that had got my attention focused on the
satellite. From this second light there was a second satellite closing in with the first one as it moved over my house. Their speed was similar and
the distance between the two I cannot say but I have seen enough satellites (Satellite geek) to know they were at extreme altitude, well beyond the
height of any aircraft. The distance from the two satellites would be blocked if I pointed my arm straight up and blocked them with four fingers.
The second satellite flashed a very intense red cone of triangular light at the first satellite as it closed the distance and the response was another
flash of blue light aimed at the second satellite. This then responded with a second flash of red conical light and then they merged with a flash of
white Omni-directional light.
After the flash was gone there was just the first satellite moving now over my house and I had got to my feet by now without taking my eyes of the
scene even once. I backed up as the satellite started to become obscured by my roof and about five seconds after the merger of the two the satellite
started winking on and off a bright orange. At one point during this sighting I mentally questioned if I was hallucinating for some reason and looked
away briefly, swore a few choice words and then looked back at the sighting. The UFO was still there and its orange blinking was not a strobe, more a
sporadic lighting, on and off at twice the speed a man blinks roughly but at points it sped up and then slowed and repeated.
I eventually lost it and it was blocked from view by my roof and I even broke my fence and fell on my back as I backed up as I was so intensely
focused on watching this phenomenon that nothing else was in my mind except to soak it up and not to miss a thing.
Even though I was nearly hyperventilating with excitement I rushed through my house to the front and it was gone. No clouds in the sky just stars.
I was extremely vocal about what I had seen the next day and I did not care who I told... Bad move I might add.
The long and short of it is that I ended up separated from my wife for eight months or more and I went into a terrible spiral of depression and
confusion as I struggled to explain what had happened to me because not only had I seen something but I had felt something too I had seen what I had
hoped I would see but it had turned my life upside down to the extent that now I lived alone with my beloved dog in a one bedroom flat (apartment). My
mind had cracks in it, I felt weak spiritually and mentally and I thought at one point that I should end my life as in the change had come a keener
understanding of the world and I did not like it at all.
Today I am OK but I am very different but my wife loves this new me so I cannot complain.
I am going through some kind of spiritual awakening, I do not know what it means but I am no longer tortured by what is.