To the OP:
Firstly, like everyone else, I'd like to say sorry for your loss; hopefully your friend is now in a better place and isn't suffering any longer.
Like a few others in this thread your story rings particularly true to me as it describes a very similiar situation I'm in myself. I have a best
friend who I haven't seen properly during the last two years as he was moved location to go study at university however he's back locally now and in
fact I saw him only yesterday.
Me and my mate discuss a wide variety of topics such as Quantum Mechanics, Meditation, UFO's, Zero Point Energy, Zen, Psychology etc etc at times we
have felt so enlightened during our talks that we could be described as being high on life and to an observer it would look like we had consumed a
variety of illegal substances.
Anyways, I love the guy and our conversations together, he went through a bad patch a few years ago when his mother died but now he's back on track
and feeling connected with life and nature.
In fact he's at his university graduation ceremony now as we speak!
So its great to now that he's back on form however the problem is that I've recently gone the other way. I'd never commit suicide (no offence to
your friend) as personally I see it as a bit of a cowardly way out but I can honestly understand why some people do.
Recently, I've felt more and more disconnected with life and reality. It's hard to explain but the symptoms of Depersonalization disorder sum it up
quite well, I feel like I'm simply going through the motions and not living life, like life at the minute is like a film I'm watching.
Coupled with the fact I'm drinking too much at the minute, I'm not in a very good way mentally right now.
I'm not blaming the occult or the topics on ATS for the way I'm feeling, in fact I'd say they had nothing to do with it but strangely enough I have
found myself on ATS more this week after feeling this way so as you can imagine it was pretty strange and ironic to read your thread (which only
re-enforces my feelings of false reality)
At the end of the day I think some people can just snap, the saying goes that you can be too clever for your own good. I don't know exactly what was
going on in your friends mind but I can offer how I'm feeling personally at the minute, pretty confused and disconnected for no real reason.
I think everyone needs to take a step back in life every now and again, not just away from ATS but away from everything, to completely relax and not
worry about jobs, finances etc
It's easier said than done (I'm contradicting myself in a sense because I find that I can barely ever switch off) but I think it would be beneficial
[edit on 17/7/10 by Death_Kron]