reply to post by Benevolent Heretic
yeah - i think of it as 'detachment' for a lack of a better term.
you will get more proficient at it, without losing the part of you that is a result of the GOOD times.
that part of you is the real you.
the worries and fears and anxieties are NOT you.
you are joy, as you know!
it will become more like a habit or maybe even just a way to live.
but now that you've experienced it, i doubt that you'll ever go back to the other way even by lack of diligence, so to speak. i don't think it is
natural and therefore doesn't persist itself.
you have to be diligent in meditation but not in just living for the moment!
joy comes far more naturally than any negative emotion, certainly.
just my opinion.
well, from personal experience, that is.
i'm glad for you and your husband.
depression, as i learned it in nursing school psychology, is "anger turned inward"
- which i later experienced on a one-time situational
basis, in my own life, and i realized it was 100% true!
and that being the case, there is no amount or type of chemical therapy that can resolve it. anti-depressants cannot work because the chemical
imbalance in the brain does not cause the depression - it just shows that it is there, a symptom or indication.
the very nature of being mad at one's self precludes the discovery of the anger, for most people. it's not easy to be mad or disappointed with
one's self - what can you do?
but if you forget why you are mad or disappointed, *poof*.
there's no need to do anything about it, anymore, anyway!