posted on Jul, 14 2010 @ 02:27 PM
Letters I’ve Written, Never Meaning To Send ?
Some of you music fans will get that title. I’m not even sure that it’s the correct
Title for my thread, but read on, you’ll see where I’m going with this.
The subject is : Death.
I’ve been thinking about it recently. I’m not necessarily afraid of dying or how I will die.
I guess I need to say it like this: Being alive, thinking about life, I get scared and sad, thinking that some day, I will no longer exist. Does
that make sense?
So, thinking along those lines, I was thinking I want my friends and family to know, what I was thinking.
I’ve decided that I’m going to write letters to my family and friends. These are to be handed out to them after my death.
These letters will be given to, my Daughter, my wife, my ex-wife, my father (if he’s still around), both of my brothers, A dear friend from my
childhood, some friends that I have now and some others who I have known during my life.
What will the letters contain? Well, things I want to say, but either can’t in person or things that maybe would be better said after I’m gone,
things that I can share with that one person, who needs to know and should be the only one to know.
For instance, the letter to my daughter, I want to tell her about some things that happened before she was born, things I felt when she was little and
especially about when her mother and I divorced, I just want to clear the air. I think if I did it now, it could cause hard feelings, not only in the
situation with my daughter, but with a couple of other people in my life.
Does doing it this way make me a coward or less of a man? Maybe I am avoiding conversations that need to be had, should I go to these people now and
share my thoughts with them? I actually confused about it.
Another part of me thinks this is really a great idea. I can write and write and share my thoughts and feelings from over the years right up until my
death. These will be keepsakes that my family and friends can have and re-read whenever they want to. I guess in my mind, it would keep a part of me
So, that’s it, the big plan.
What do you think?