When I read through all of the posts I kept wondering one thing:
enlightment and awakening, are they the same thing? Are these two words to describe the same? And should it be a pleasant experience or can it be
abrubt as well?
Back in 2004, I was 27 at the time, I started talking to a guy on the Internet, about our spiritual path (his was quite different then mine). I
usually talked about how I felt I was looking for something but couldn't tell what it was, I talked about not feeling content in life, how my life
was filled with fear and phobias and how I needed the feeling of 'being in control' over my life but instead only battled chaos on a daily basis.
One day he sugested that, as a test, I let go of all control and 'embraced the chaos. He said that by accepting chaos you allow change because one
can't be without the other.
So that's exactly what I did, at first not much happened, but then, I remember so clearly... one day I was walking to my childs school on foot when
suddenly I began to have a strange feeling. I looked around me and 'realized' that the world was like a computergame. I looked at the cars driving
by and it was as if I was looking at a movie. It freaked me out! This sensations lasted days. Whenever I saw another person I thought ' this poor
person doesn't realize a thing'. Then about a week later I stood in front of my mirror and I couldn't recognize myself. I knew the reflection was
one of my body, but that body wasn't me!. I was in shock because of this realisation.
To me that all makes sense now but after that last experience I went to see my docter and spend the next 6 months on xanax. The xanax made me feel
normal again, untill I realized that 'normal' wasn't reality... and I quit taking them.
It's 6 years later now and my spiritual path and my thought patterns have changed very much since then. My personal 'proof' has not doubled but
trippled X10. I know I can create my future with thought only and I know I can't teach this to anyone else because everyone has to be his own teacher
and conclude from his own experiences. Those will come when the time is right for it.
But I know that when someone says 'I've been awakened or enlightened', then that person did have a mindblowing experience and he/she is exactly
where supposed to be and on the right track.
anyway, was this an awakening? was it enlightment? I doubt the last , it wasn't as peaceful as enlightment is told to be, lol
great post OP
(sorry for the typo's, didn't do a check... shame on me