About maybe a month ago, i was listening to this spiritual teacher on CD and at one point he said "...its actually impossible to know anything with
absolute certainty, you can only know something with either a greater or lesser amount of certainty.." (paraphrased)
This was a massive revelation for me. I suddenly realised that everything i believed to be true; everything i thought i knew was utterly worthless.
All these hours i had spent reading spiritual books; going to talks; had all been for nothing, because they were only beliefs and i would never be
able to know if my beliefs were true or false, which led me to realise that the only thing i knew, is that i knew nothing.
At that moment i literally felt all my beliefs fall to the ground, these beliefs about spirituality and enlightenment had burdened me all this time
and i felt this HUGE
relief come over my body, especially my shoulders. Then, i felt this veil lift up over my eyes. (the best way to describe
it is like bridal veil that you see brides wear sometimes at weddings XD).
I noticed immediately how quiet my mind was all my mental ramblings had stopped but i still retained my "practical mind" the voice in your head you
hear when reading a book or working out a maths problem.
The next day, when i was walking in the city, i noticed how content and happy i felt, (not blissfully happy with tears streaming down my face which i
think is quite a common misconception about enlightenment) it felt more like contentment but better lol. I also noticed that i could feel the
illusory nature of the world, i felt like i was in a computer game. I then saw this businessman on his mobile phone being all stressed and stuff, and
i just laughed at him because i understood that we aren't who we believe ourselves to be, its our beliefs that are keeping us from becoming
enlightened; and that life is just a game we play, a game which isn't about winning or losing, and when the game ends, if we like, we can choose to
We're not really Billy Smith or Sarah Millman we are just infinite consciousness (god) pretending to be. We are the best actors ever! That's why i
laughed at the businessman because i thought "Ha! that guy really believes he's a businessman!, He doesn't realise he's just god pretending to be!
chill out! It's just a game!"
So i was wondering has anyone else experienced anythings similar to this or knows what exactly this is? Is this enlightenment or maybe something else?
If you could shed any light on this that would be great. I have been looking on the internet but have found very little.
P.S sorry its a bit lengthy