reply to post by brilab45
That year, when I lost my best friend, had my heart broken and saw two of my pets die, I felt very strongly as if I was up against a gigantic obstacle
that I couldn't get round, get over or get through.
It was like a huge boulder blocking the stream of my life.
Talking about it helped although I had no friends to discuss it with - I had to go to professionals.
Gradually, I started to find small things to take an interest in, the birds in the garden for instance. Squirrels in the park.
I got two new little pets to keep me 'rooted' in this life. Having someone depending on me helped to keep me going.
Do you have people to talk to? I just read your thread about your dogs - I'm glad you have them to love.
It's an extremely difficult road to walk and I'm not pretending that my grief will have gone as deep as yours but I'm hoping I will be able to
suggest something that will help you.
I would encourage you to write more about your partner. Tell us more about him so that this thread can become a tribute to him. You must have some
wonderful memories that you could share.
If you can, write your feelings down. Not to share with anyone else if you don't want to, but to get them out. It can help a lot.
Visualisation helps a lot too. How do you see your inner landscape? Can you see the people who respond to this thread as throwing you a line to try
and help pull you through? Can you picture us helping to dig a way out? Any description you feel comfortable with, I'll see it that way too.
Your partner saw a wonderful person when he looked at you, someone he could laugh with and trust. The person he wanted to spend his time with. That's
the person we need to bring forward again. Older, wiser, sadder, but still you. Still the person who attracted a courageous and thoughtful man.
I enjoyed writing about my friend yesterday. Please keep writing here, it will help.
That boulder I mentioned earlier, I never got through it, round it or over it. It dissipated. It took a very long time, but it's gone now. It can be
done. I'm so hoping that something here will help rid you of yours.
Small steps maybe, but at least in the right direction.
[edit on 25-6-2010 by berenike]