posted on Jun, 9 2010 @ 02:54 PM
Originally posted by Mr Headshot
"Be yourself" is bad for me because I'm a pretty horrible person on the inside, I do some bad things if I don't try to make myself into something
That really struck me, it's fairly brutally honest but I know exactly what you mean.
I think that an awful lot of people feel that way, including me. The thing is, it's a nightmare spiral because as soon as you try to be "something
else", you'll feel inadequate because the present you is less than it should be.
You can only try to be "more of a man" if you convince yourself that the man you are is less than adequate. Since being inadequate is not a "manly
trait", by trying to be "more of a man", you become less of a man.
This trap is really hard to escape.
The thing is, the only way you can make the statement above is if there is a Mr Headshot inside your skull that sees the bad crap and rejects it.
There has to be a Mr Headshot that doesn't own that stuff. Maybe that's you and the nasty stuff is the toxic waste that's created by trying to be
something else. I think that's the way it is with me anyway, it's hard to know.
The fear bit in my sig might have some part to play as well, I think fear has a lot to do with it.
[edit on 9/6/10 by pieman]