posted on Jun, 7 2010 @ 11:44 PM
First...do you have someone praying for you? A parent or parents?... Maybe a friend? These are prayers being answered. God works in mysterious ways,
and often times, quite literally.
Second... Do you believe in angels? Sometimes, they appear to try and guide us and give direction. Reflect on what you just wrote and experienced.
Someone is trying to send you a message.
Third... you sound as if you are relatively young...at least in comparrison to me. It is normal for people to have doubts, to question what you
believe...that is normal, and it is good. The fact that you are rationalizing your thoughts and what you see happening around you means you are open
to God's little hints and haven't pushed Him out .... not yet. Trust me, God will prove He is real.
Lastly, since you are still young, your life still lies mostly in front of you. You will have many wonderful and terrible things happen to you, that
is the nature of life. I can assure you that God is real, and sometime in the years to come, you will have nothing to lean on but faith...that is when
God will reveal how real He is. It will be wonderful to know that you do not walk alone.
All of these things I can say because I have suffered many times, terrible things, tragedies, dissappointments, bad decisions, everyday life. But I
have also been richly blessed, enjoyed things I never dreamed of, and realized that God is a pretty smart ol' fella and really does know best.
One example, 1993 I married a beautiful blonde from NJ...loved that woman so. She made my heart and stomach jump everytime i saw her and talked to
her. We had my little farm I owned, she had a big ol' house in town. We married and decided after a year to move to the country,...well, it wasn't
long before her idea of country wasn't my idea of country. It went down hill after that....
Despite my prayers, we divorced and I was heart broken. I felt betrayed by her and God...I tried so hard to make it work.
Fast forward 3 years, I met another blonde...from NJ...unusual as I live in NC. We married. We did move to the country and bought a big farm...just
literally on the other side of the hill, unbeknownst to me, from where I was looking about 4 years previous.
I realized then God has a sense of humor and irony. We have lived happily there for over 10 years now.
Great line from Stephen King's The Stand...."You may not believe in God, but He believes in you."