posted on Jun, 7 2010 @ 01:02 AM
Wow I though this thread had died
I suppose a short update should be given: the "Panic Button" has stopped going off, but I've been finding myself having more and more vivid
nightmares. Due to my past I've always had a higher frequency of nightmares, but recently they've become downright horrific. Today I was so scared
because of it I declined an invitation to have dinner with a girl I really like. I'm ok now, but it was without a doubt the most violent dream I've
ever had, and that includes the one inspired after I watched the Day After!
SnowSpirit. It looks like I'm similar in age to your son. I remember on 9/11 that I knew about the second plane somehow and turned my chair like I
was watching it on the horizon, with my eyes hitting the TV screen right as the plane hit. Thank you for telling me your thoughts and concerns.
Sadly I'm anchored here by people I love who aren't of the same thoughts as I am. Also doesn't help that I don't drive due to it being one of the
few things that causes my brain to just freeze (think blue screen of death on a computer).
Those were desperate times in which I found money like that. I freak people out when I tell them I've experienced starvation twice in my life.
MnmCandiez, speaking of being freaked out, I could have sworn you were reading my mind. I got to looking back at some of the journals I would keep
back then and read at how some of those same things would happen. I had forgotten to say anything about deje vu.
As for it fading over time, I think it was a developed sense due to desperation. Since for many years now I have not needed to worry about where
meals would come from and have had people whom I can go to with my problems (other than only praying to God, which I still do), I think it has
atrophied. Not really sure if or how I could build it back up to be honest, but in these trying times I probably need to look into it more.
My gut tells me that between the Operation Blackjack stuff, the partial solar eclipse within a few days of my birthday, and the goofiness that has
been going on in the world, anyone that has an advantage will need it just to not be caught in what may come, let alone live something close to a