posted on Jun, 9 2004 @ 10:23 AM
Well, I don't wanna eat the rich cuz it seems like they'd be stringy.
He's a decent enough guy who seems to fall prey to depression and low self-esteem pretty easily. I should have more tolerance for it since I used to
be in the same boat with both issues, and still have them sometimes, but I've worked to fix that and he just seems content to let it wash over him.
I can't fix him. I don't have the energy!
We had both agreed we want enough to be happy. Bills paid, a little entertainment and a little to put away for later. But it seems it's never
enough. And his problems are always someone else's fault. He's walked off of 3 jobs in under a year. I kept saying "Sometimes you have to eat a
little s**t to make it and meanwhile just look for something else" but he lets it go until he's ready to explode, cusses out the boss, and walks
off. Nice luxury to have, I guess. If I do that, I'm homeless! But then, since I work in an office, I don't actually WORK for a living according
to him. (But then in the heat of argument, he sometimes says things he doesn't mean, as we all do). I don't know. It brings out the worst in me
to argue about it, which is why I altered our living arrangement and he's now back in his home town. I didn't throw him out... he threatened to
leave (again) and I held him to it. *L*
I hate to just drop him because he does have good qualities and I know he really loves me, but I don't care about money. I just want peace and
quiet! Told him I'd have it with or without him. And love isn't always enough.