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I see myself as so 'service to self' but also think this is where I am suppose to be at this moment in time. I want to move forward but don't seem to be able to discipline myself. Your service to self vs service to others reminds me of the Cassiopeians ... Are you familiar with them and is this where your understanding comes from?
The law of one material teaches about the path of service to others, but then talks about ascension, which I find to be a path of 'self'. Its not so much we should live perfectly day by day always placing others before ourselves...but it is a choice...what is of our most inner nature. I still have to live to serve myself, taking time to meditate and I do satisfy desires of my 'self' as well.
Originally posted by liveandlearn
Back to me. I have lost myself and my path. I had dreams this would happen and I did regardless of my efforts and determination to avoid it. I do not want to live this life again and ancient teachings tell us we live the same life over and over till we get it (my words).
Okay, if I live this life over, so be it. But ascension or not. I want out of here.
Originally posted by liveandlearn
Yes, Xtrozero you do make a good point but I am nearing the end of my life and as I said I don't want to do this over again. I want outa here. enough pain, enough heartbreak. Just need to get it together and move on.
I think this needs to be a priority in life...not just allowing life to happen. You have children. I can understand. I have grown grandchildren. Live with no one by choice. I have taken my sabbatical. Time to move on.