Infinite's tears (My life in Poems)

This is just pretty random, just words thrown down. This isn't one of my bests, i have more to come soon.

"Untitled"

There's nothing left,
The voices in my head,
Keep going and coming,
Im tired thinking about what you said,
I wish i was dead,
Sorry but its true,
Nobody knows what i've been through,
Lifes too much to bare,
Nobody cares,
I wish my life would just end,
All i ever wanted was some love,
Not too much to ask for,
Do you know what its like to have flashbacks
to when you was four,
Being kicked and thrown across the floor,
Picked up and pinned against the door,
But no more tears or fears,
It will be all over soon.

That poem, I think could hit home with anyone. All anyone wants is love, love or to be loved.

And we all have voices tha come and go, some may not admit it.

Very nice thanks for sharing.

"Cry"

Forget the life that was too much,
Forget about pain that you felt when growing up,
This endless pain goes on,
One day i woke up and thought it was gone,
But i was wrong,
It never goes away,
The pain always stays,

I have no more room to give,
taken up by the pressure and pain
felt as a kid,
This is my painful sin,
I wish life would just die,
Kiss the world goodbye,
Im afraid to cry.

"I give up"

Why must i be this way,
Why do i have to die,
My only wish is to never cry,
And to never believe a broken lie,
I look to God in the time of need,
But the heavens stay silent while i bleed,

I wish i could hold my hands high,
I want to scream to the sky,
Dear Lord this life is too much,
Hard to live with this pain,
Forgive me for i have sinned,
The love has drove me insane,
Why does my life have to be this way,

Let me be lord,
Let me go,
I can't take the pain,
Hell continues to spit the blood rain,
Please Lord,
I give up

Infinite, You going to write a poem book? You should you could sell alot.

I have been thinkin about it, but i don't think they are good enough thou. Have no idea how to start a book.

The hard part is writing all the poems and getting them to paper, then find a publisher thats intrested, or self-publish(cost more money). I Think they are good enough. In poems its not a matter of the words, its the feeling in the words. I have the ability the show alot of feeling in your words. Look how easy you sent me a message, and I knew just what the problem was. It wasnt me, it was you sending the feeling out.

I've been looking around for a while now, searching on how to go about getting my work published. The plan was to put all my poems together in a book, but i was worried incase people didn't like them. It helped getting good feed back from ATS members who liked my poems

Not wanting to insult you, but the have the "for dummies" books, Like "PC for dummies" You could get the "publishing for dummies". Just an Idea.

"Everyone is a shade of Grey"

I want you to protect me from this world,
I want you to hold me and take away my pain,
Life is playing a game,
A game i can never win,
Everything hurts so much,
I can't bare to go on,
Life keeps repeating the same song,
And Keeps bleeding my veins,
Im too weak to fight the pain,
It hurts to think that love
could heal my wounds,
I still don't know why
I pushed you away,
Why did i make you die,
Just let me bleed and cry.

"Mirror,Mirror"

Mirror,mirror on the wall,
Who is the most broken and used of them all,
How does it feel to be used,
O mirror, mirror on the wall,
Am I the most broken of them all,
Am i really different from them all,
Why can't i be strong and stand tall,
And get away from all this hurt,
Why is my life like a ball of dirt,
Mirror,mirror on the wall,
Why can't i be like them all.

This is about my girlfriend, well i broke up with her on Tuesday cause i felt unhappy and wanted to be alone. This is for her...

"Abigail"

Wasted years continue to past me by,
I never understand the point in life,
Or why God does this to me,
Maybe one day i will see,
Why this always happens to me,
I always look back and will forever together
with the nightmare of a insomniac,
As i continue to die for a final time,
I pray that this will be my last,

Shove the needle in my vein,
Inject the feeling to over take the pain,
As i fall in love with my darling abigail,
The wind helped our boat to sail,
But when we hit the storm,
I walked and left my abigail.

With my kiss i can take your pain away,
I don't care if your pain kills me,
I'll still take it away,
So you can smile another day,
Even though i walked away,
My soul will always be with you,
I will always love you




[edit on 11-8-2004 by infinite]

This next poem is for everyone who is feeling pain. I wrote it especially for a member of ATS, U2U it to them aswell. Hope you like this one,

My words are a curse,
When i write it hurts,
Take the pain from outerspace,
and bring into sight,
Ill be the one to light,
Then Burn your pain,
And take all your fear away,

With my words today,
I will heal your pain,
In this world of hurt
I know you bleed,
With the hate of Apathy,

But i will write and take
it all away,
With Words,
Just read everyday,
And ill take it all away.

Thanks for sharing Infinite.

This is just another one of my non ryhme poems, i feel poems that do not ryhme can have more meaning. This is basicly about a world after a nuclear war.

"Forgotten Earth"

I walk across the bones of lost love,
Crushed and torn by hateful sins,
I still hear the voices of yesterday,
Why can't i see the face.

The sun never shines anymore,
Destroyed and damage by Gods Apathy,
As we move into the voilence of our lives,
Little people continue to worship ignorance.

Our moon looks on with disgust,
On to the toture chamber of our world,
Are we really so cruel,
Do we breed to kill,
Only man knows the answer.

"Taste of grey"

Lonely in this life, there is pain everywhere,
Kill me before its over, i don't want to die here,
Love me someone, help me through this,
Hate me everyone, i know that im lost.

Broken in this heart, there is no feeling here,
Sweet little pill, take this all away,
Hold me darling, take away this fear,
Hurt me girlfriend, kill another day.

Bleed my inner soul, nothing left here,
Help me find that something, make me sane,
Kill me mother, i know you don't want me here,
Rape me brother, Give me more pain.

Damn infinite you got some nice poems! I could not write that if my life depended on it! lol

Thank you,
Anyone can write like this, just look into your soul and find the words

[edit on 17-8-2004 by infinite]

Very nice poems kind of sad, you should make your own poems book.

Smile away and forget the pain,
Never again,
Shall we be hurt again,
No longer blind,
For i can see,
No more reasons to bleed,
I dont need to cry,
Today,
I wont die,
Cause im now born new,
And i love you.