posted on May, 13 2010 @ 03:42 PM
Everything in me tells me that truth is virtuous, I just haven't figured out how yet. Anyone else having this problem?
Please tell me there is someone else on this planet who still thinks there's some reason for all of this. Some light at the end of the tunnel. Some
reason other than happenstance for self-awareness at all. Please tell me I'm suffering in stagnancy for some practical or viable reason. Or, if you
prefer negativity, please tell me I'm NOT suffering in stagnancy for NO reason at all.
Please tell me that the truth is somehow virtuous, and if you can, please tell me how. And please try to expand your mind passed the remedial "Well,
if we know the truth, we can make viable decisions toward a certain end." It's not the end (the future) or the beginning (the past), or even
personal motive I'm interested in. I'm interested in the now. How does knowing truth improve or positively impact your life, at the moment. If it
doesn't...please tell me how you cope with it, beyond merely ignoring it or purposefully distracting yourself from it.
Because, I gotta tell ya...the more realism I find, the more burden I bare; the more the more heartache I endure...the more I suffer, period. The
more I lift my head from the sand, the more I want to put it back inside the hole (or whole if you will).
Everything in me tells me that knowing the truth is the quickest path to preparing for it, but for what are we preparing, and just HOW LONG do we have
to prepare? Am I going insane in mere vanity or zealousness? Am I the only one noticing the immediacies we are staring in the face? And if you have
to ask, "What immediacies?" just don't post. Don't waste my time, and I hereby apologize for wasting yours. Go back to watching TV and enjoying
your well-earned entertainments. I honestly hold no grudge, believe me.
I suppose I could be just fishing for a hand or two to pull me back into the boat (of sanity). Please help...or just come pick me up...I'm ready for
my electro-shock memory wipe, because neither detox nor tox seem to be working anymore.
Everything in me tells me that truth is virtuous, please tell me how.
[edit on 13-5-2010 by lagnar]