posted on May, 3 2010 @ 06:26 AM
Hi. I am a young man, in the middle of my 20's. I have been a member on ATS quite a while, and a frequent reader alot longer than that, but have
never really been the one to post a new thread. I think I have made only two as to this date. Anyway, when I wanted to start a new thread now, In the
paranormal section, I was told to post a few in the Introductions Forum. So here goes. (PS. I am not of English-speaking origin, som please bare with
I really don't know that much about this, so consider me to be a nobody as regarding knowledge of the Extrasensory Perception and other paranormal
topics. My "hang around forum" here on ATS is Space Exploration. But anyways.
I think I have this kind of sixth sense. It is really strong and have always been there. But it is rather uncontrollable, and only "kicks in" at
certain times. And it is eating me alive. I will try to explain.
I get this sensation, it's like within, and in my gut, and in my soul and in my heart and in my brain, that consumes me. And it tells me whenever
something bad is going to happen to me.. It can be anything, but only those things that really affects the every day life. Like for example if I love
a girl, I can get this feeling that something is wrong, and I can nearly picture it to detail what (if something has happened without me knowing it)
has happened or will happen, and the effects it has upon me. I allways know when I'm going to lose. I can describe in detail a string of events that
has happened, without me really knowing it, that will lead to bad results for me.
This can happen over vast distances and it is allways related to a person that has great influence in my life. If someone is or will be cheating on
me, I know. If someone hurts because of me, I know. If someone dies, that is close to me, I know . The big underline here is. I allways know when
"the big bad"/bad things happen to me. Before it does. And I can't change it. No matter how hard I try, I can't, and it tears me appart. All I can
do, is sit and wait for it to happen. It seems to me that my "sense" kicks in to late. It also feels like bad events is a direct result of me,
even if I know that there is no relation between the "bad thing" and my actions.
This scares me, and annoys me, and destroys me. And as I have grown older, the feeling gets stronger every time.
It seems to me that this "sense" or call it whatever you want, is ment to make me suffer longer and harder and more than I need to. It is almost
like itself is the REASON that bad things happen.
And bare in mind, the "sense" only kicks in on REALLY BIG everyday life things. Love and such. And it destroys it.
Does anybody else have this sensation? Or anything similar? I can't live with it anymore, because it hurts to much. I can physically feel it. It's
like beeing punched in the stomach again and again, and the sensation lasts. Is there something I can do?
I need help.. Don't know where else to turn to.