posted on Apr, 27 2010 @ 11:18 AM
I understand those that are angry, and disillusioned with the human race. I've seen the really ugly side. I know that people on here get twitchy
when you share a personal story, so I won't bore everyone with details, but please, bear with me.
I have been gang raped, beaten, looked down the wrong end of a gun in my face (twice), shot at (once), and had knives pulled on me. I've done my
share of brawling to save my life (I never started it, but I would do my best to finish it), double and triple dealing, and some nasty, mind-game
I have spent parts of my life surrounded by thieves, murderers, drug dealers, whores and pimps, and... Some of it I'll leave out. I have been
well on that road to becoming one of those opportunistic, predatory, crap-bags that will take everything that you have just for the money/ego trip. I
know what it is to say 'f**k it. I'll get mine, and everyone else can go to hell.'
The thing is... is that even in the midst of all of that madness, there was loyalty, and kindness, and love and all of the things that hold us
together. Certainly not as much of it, but I was just as surprised by people's kindness in those circumstances as I was by our capacity for cruelty.
Even when their lives were at risk for even showing compassion, people still did. Genuinely enough. I can't say it was always (although often it
was) with no strings attached, but it was there.
And sometimes... People do wake up, even when they've been hurt so much, and victimized to the point that becoming the victimizer seems the only way
to stay sane.
It's easy to focus on the negative. I get it. But, I don't believe we are lost as a species. I don't believe that we are some
parasitic/cancerous growth that the planet/universe would be better off without. We are simply part of the fabric. We are as integral, and symbiotic
to the entire system as any whale, bee, flower, or piece of plankton. We are what we are. Clever, cruel, kind, creative, destructive and just as
beautiful and complex as any other living thing. No more... And like it or not... No less.
Yes. Yes I would. I wouldn't make messy, egocentric, arbitrary, and certainly incorrect decisions about who lives and who dies either. I'm waayyy
too messed up to get to make that call... And, frankly, so is everyone else.