posted on Apr, 21 2010 @ 11:13 AM
I never tried neithermeditation or hypnosis, I just daydream or imagine and try not to think... Which is why I fail at everything I try.
oo and ahmose I am 25 and there is something fishy about reality which is why I look for something I had no clue what it was.
I have a nose for "it" I guess.
I always tried to blend in or act normal but it never worked so well, maybe I couldn't because all w/e that could be in my body, then this happened
and they just let me stay in my room and gain a whole bunch of weight and stuff... It was like "why didn;t they show then?" Why did the let me think
I was nuts for so long saying so long to my friends and reputation.
So to "fight back" I put everything about me online so they could make fun of me so I can see then, and it worked.
Cause usually we try to hide the uglyness that is lives and natural thought so I just "puked" it all out in order to try to catch my memory. I think
they ruined my brain from the start
so I tried to fix my brain cause I am and always have been trying to figure my brain out.
I call meself a thoughtanaut. lol I made that word up.
I also wanted to figure out where thoughts came from and I kinda get it but not really cause it is tough to comprehend when... idk info comes
It is kinda like when Laguna in Final Fantasy 8 had feries in his mind and it was Squall most of the time.