It's a little late in the thread for introducing new concepts I suppose, but I ran across something and it reminded me of this topic. Perhaps this
late in the thread is the perfect place to introduce it, though; only those who are really
interested in this topic are still here. The trolls
(peace be upon them) are off playing elsewhere. So I thought I'd share. Anyway.
I read a lot of stuff. Something I've been concentrating lately on getting through is the Apocrypha; you know, all those books of the Bible that they
left out of the Bible because they were too Gnostic for Constantine's tastes? Well, this is the second verse of the
Gospel of Thomas
(a.k.a. "Doubting Thomas"), which is simply a collection he made of the
"secret" things Jesus said:
Let him who seeks continue seeking until he finds. When he finds, he will become troubled. When he becomes troubled, he will be astonished, and he
will rule over the All.
Doesn't that sound just like what you guys (and, sadly, not I) have experienced? Only the prerequisite of "giving up"
or "surrendering" is missing. Now, believe me, I've given up and surrendered many times over the past, uh... 14 years or so (over a third of my
life). I've tried meditating (can't get my brain to shut up long enough though), and prayer, and asking, and giving up, and seeking, and looking,
and nothing ever changes. Yet I'm certain I'm being kept alive for something. I've narrowly escaped certain death several times in my life. I've
never had a broken bone or surgery. My dad was actually visited by an angel to tell him everything was going to be okay (back during the 1970's
recession). I have all the faith in the world, and yet because I've got only
that faith, no proof, no personal experiences or visitations or
strange voices out of nowhere or burning bushes or talking dogs or Morgan Freeman in a white tuxedo, well... I worry. But I will continue to seek
until I find. The only alternative is giving up, and I've been there. I think. And now you know why I read so much.
Sorry, I tend to ramble. Enough about me. There's lots of other interesting stuff in the other
. Become a wisdom sponge... though it hasn't seemed to do me much good
(yet), I still haven't given up on it. Or is that what I should
do (again)... so confused...
Perhaps all I should do is wait.
 Wait, wait! Serious question. Those who've had epiphanies, who've glimpsed the infinite; do you get the feeling that before your awakening,
you were divided into two separate "people" (body and higher self/soul perhaps), but that the awakening "made the two one?" I ask because of other
stuff I've just read in Thomas, stuff right out of the mouth of Jesus... namely:
"If two make peace with each other in this one house, they will say to the mountain, 'Move Away,' and it will move away."
"When you make the two one, you will become the sons of man, and when you say, 'Mountain, move away,' it will move away."
"On the day when you were one you became two. But when you become two, what will you do?"
"When you make the two one, and when you make the inside like the outside and the outside like the inside, and the above like the below, and when you
make the male and the female one and the same, so that the male not be male nor the female female; and when you fashion eyes in the place of an eye,
and a hand in place of a hand, and a foot in place of a foot, and a likeness in place of a likeness; then will you enter [the Kingdom]."
"Whoever finds the interpretation of these sayings will not experience death."
Does any of this ring a bell?
[edit on 5/13/2010 by Thought Provoker]