Tried this before, but now I have a valid reason.
I've been suffering from pains in my diaphragm for years. I've been keeping quiet about it for just as long. When I moved together with my
girlfriend, she took notice of my frequent cramps of agony and persuaded me into seeing a doctor.
I had to agree, it was about time. I couldn't even laugh hard without it turning into a painful ordeal...that kinda deprives my life of a lot of
Went to the doctor last monday (12th of April) and had a Esophagogastroduodenoscopy (that's 26-letters), also known as gastroenterology.
No need to say it was pure hell. I was awake the whole time (took like 3 minutes, felt like hours!) at it hurt
So, anyway, it turns out I have this inflamed Hiatus Hernia
, which is a hernia just where the esophagus, or gullet, meets the stomach.
Now, the hernia itself doesn't hurt, people can have that all their life without even taking notice of it; but the inflammation is the source of my
I got some medication that I am to eat once a day for a month. Then I'll go back and have the throat torture done on me again...
hopefully, the inflammation will be gone (the hernia won't heal without surgery though, but I don't think I need that). 90% of the patients are
content with the medication treatment.
There is this crappy side of this as well.
To avoid the hernia from getting worse (and eventually leading up to surgery), I need to make lifestyle adjustments
Less or no more;
In other words, no more fun.
Seriously, this is depressing the crap outta me.
Call me a "cry baby" or whatever, but this really takes away alot of freedom. I hate
"considering" things; I much rather just do
stuff that I feel like doing.
But I guess this is the new way for me. Hopefully I can have a few beers, if I stick to these rules for a year or so, without having a vulcanic
apocalypse going off in my gut...and that would actually be an improvement. I guess... *sigh*
Now, the only
part of the list I can really do without are the tobacco products. Not that I want to
in any way, but I know it's bad for
me and all that, so I might as well.
I don't smoke too often (haven bought a pack of smokes since New Year's) so that won't be a problem (at least I don't think so).
What I do use, however, is the dreaded "snus", or "snuff" as it is also called, and it is a real gut-buster (it wouldn't surprise me if the snus
caused the hernia in the first place).
Snus is something typically Scandinavian; pouches of ground tobacco (with flavouring) that one puts under the upper (sometimes lower) lip and keeps it
there for 20-30 minutes or so. There is also a kind of snus that is just ground up tobacco that you "bake" to a little ball, but that stuff is just
too gross (even for me!).
The nicotine emission from the snus is constant (until the serving is drained) and equals to 3 or 4 cigarettes.
I use, let's say, 10 each day at work (I tend to use much less when I am off duty) so that means I am pretty much addicted to nicotine.
The normal day starts off with the first suns being taken at 7 a.m.
It is now 9.20 am and I have still not taken one... I do have a box of it in my locker since I find it easier to deny myself than being denied.
Besides, last time I tried to quit, I got a severe head ache and I still have to be able to do my job...
I have noticed that cutting down your snus consumption is much about when
you take the first one in the morning. The earlier you take one, the
more you will have during the day, and vice-versa.
I have to admit, I am feeling very itchy and I just got an angry complaint via e-mail from a customer so I really
feel like having some
nicotine before I go totally:
(which I propably will before this day is over).
I have not set my mind on quitting this very moment
but it is my intention
Hopefully, this thread will grow long and finally end up with me being quit (one of my many) demons.
All support is welcome; I need you guys on this one!!!
[edit on 15-4-2010 by Raud]