My karma is terrible. I was at 50. That was such a good number. Very balanced. So. I'm sitting here writing for a moment. I just finished my mad jack
ass rant. It was needed. It's the only way I keep sane these days. My anger is such that if I don't create, mock and articulate, I'll not be a good
boy. I can't see myself exploding anymore. I don't want to. It's all dramatic and such. But it doesn't solve anything. It just looks real cool in a
Hollywood movie. Like the glass smashing scene. You know, the guy gets angry and shatters the glass. This is not a good thing to do in real life. I
know this because I have a big slice in one of my fingers. I was being stupid and thought that's what you do. I saw no division between art and life
at that time. So, young. So naive.
Well. I'm here. For a bit. I don't know why, but I thought I'd offer to answer any questions you may have. This started because I didn't want to rant
to my helper and I told her to ask me random questions about stuff that she wanted to know but never got around to figuring out the answer. I told her
I have lots of useless information in my head. Her question was about geese and why they fly in a V. I actually didn't know the exact answer off the
top of my head. I had to think about it. I checked later on the internet and the answer I gave her was correct.
I used "the method" but I also incorporated evolution. Elementary, and evolutionary thinking seem to answer most things. By the way, Thomas Cream was
not the ripper silly idea. Yes, Sherlock was based on Dr Bell but the ripper is not Cream. The investigation and this time period fascinates me. It's
just about the time murder becomes industrial.
I have a great suspect.
Won't give it here anyway.
Sorry. Rough Days. I suppose this is just kicking and screaming until I play myself out.
I wish I could get some real help so I can work on my novels. I have two ideas that I think will make good movies.
One is about the ripper case.
And the other is about Atlantis and Soddom and Gommorah. This story is epic.
I just had a very odd and strange thought which unfortunately I completely belive. When Atlantis exploded and the island was turned into sulfuric rain
clouds, the Atlantians vapourized and their atoms and molecules became part of the storm from hell. I'm not finishing my thoughts for a multitude of
If you want to ask me a question. I'll hang around for a bit. I'm only saying this now because you'll be catching me in an extraordinary mood. It's
an unknown mood so take advantage. It's like I'm not so manic and my karma is calm enough I'm almost making complete sense. Trust me, I know I don't
always make sense and I frankly don't care. Einstien understood it took many failures. And that imagination is the most powerful force. And since
imagination is the seemingly random connection of thoughts which happen spontaneously and sometimes by accident, it is a good thing to express even
Like this. This is a stupid idea.
I love you buddy but yes it is.
My poor helpers. I've been writing all night. Ranting about an injustice I've suffered. I wanted to get to sleep earlier but that won't happen. I'm
quite literally having a brain storm. When I get upset I work myself into an almost relgious fervor. Lots of people have it for different reasons.
Like epilepsy. I smell burnt toast. I'm learning to control it but it isn't easy. It goes way back and I think it's first description would be the
I go beserk. Hell, you're all beserk. I've seen too much of it. But in it's truest form, it can only be understood if you've seen it or witnessed it.
I'm sure you've seen drug or alchol induced ones on television and etc. But the real deal is more like the ones the evangelecals have but with the
antichrist along for the ride.
What's fascinating is that the same basic mental system can charge the eureka moments in true scientific discovery. It's a rush like a drug. All pure
hormone. You can't really synthesize the real thing. Because it's not one thing.
Like the extinction of the mammoth, it was more than just one cause.
Oh. today I realized I am a selfish bastard. People really like me for some reason. Heck, it's cause I'm funny and smart. shhh it just masks my misery
to . shut up .......
no, the person asked if I had remembered anything that they had told me. This person was trying to convince me that I had taught them something. etc.
I feel so guilty about being self centered because I did remmber things the person told me but nowhere nearly as much as I should have or could have.
That's not all true. But it illustrated I need to be less selfish. The tough part is that I am know confident that society is filled with morons and I
want no part of it and it's okay to be a misanthropist. Of course I'll still love people. Just like pets.
But since I must live in the world because of another special soul. I will and be gald I can.
I'm tired now. So, the short window where I may have had an actual cohert thought without whining about poor little me has passed. Unless I see
something when I finish my edit and look I'm done. I can't promise anything about tomorrow. It's another time.
I'm still finding it impossible to say no as much as I'd like. One day that's all I want to say all day long. Everyone wil ask. Do you this, or do you
that? and all day long I'll say, no, no. no.
Edit. Still got some juice. Europe.
I really think I had it right about Europe. The hammer is still beating and it's not going to stop. I had doubt my predictions because it seemed like
the Americans had beaten down the Euro to a point where they were happy everyone got the message. No. So. I think it's an ownership play. The want to
wreck Europe so the can go buy it cheap.
I think there's one thing should be discussed. Will China pop?
It's looks like a bubble quack
It smells like a bubble quack
It feels like a bubble quack
it's a duck
because although China is the world's capitalists manfuacturing center and is state run, single party ruled, it cannot defy physics and the duck
cannot fly upside down.
all bubbles pop
you really thing a bunch of government accountants are going to get the math right all the time.
they will eventually have the world's largest economy.
what a struggle for control that will be. but you see my point. they won't get the numbers right, they're actually constistently lying about their
growth, they won't get the numbers right and they will implode.
real estate. if you notice. it is the modern stock crasher. in 29 it was just wild speculation everywhere. but if you go back to Asia in the 1990's,
since then it's been about real estate.
2008 was real estate.
and faulty math, the genius math students wanted the money, no one understood their accounting because it was theoretical philosophical hog wash. No
real world application. They were young and smart and they gave the old rich dudes the ideas and the computers. No one knew how to shut them off. The
real issue wsa that the students were math students.
Damn damn damn math students. I was a math kid. I could almost keep up paces with the math geeks. The problem is they were greedy and narrow minded.
They forgot one major thing. History.
Somehow. History didn't matter. The took quantum phyics and tried to able it to the wimps of the human mind. The manic human mind. The not always
rational and often corrupted and aggresive human mind that controls our buying habits and lifestyles. No. It was stupid and greedy and they are doing
the same thing over and over again trying to gamble and fix the game so the win everytime.
So, my point is to expect things that have happened in the past. Big financial crashes and big ugly wars.
Unless you've notice some big change in humanity that I haven't.
Okay, I stop there. I didn't mean to make that turn. Just that China will have a crisis. Sooner or later.
Probably later. I'm always so impatient. This is long and not edited. I don't blame you for not reading and wonder why I'm writing.
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