posted on Apr, 2 2010 @ 04:48 PM
reply to post by semperfortis
"How do I leave that?"
That to which you refer to cannot be left.
Without wishing to get too spiritual, the addiction to which you refer to, the "rushes" if you will, are available to you without the external
construct of circumstance. Whet defines that state as you yourself expressed, is a high level of awareness which is present in that moment ...
between the call and the arrival, during the "action," the mind is fully focused on the present moment and all external noise, thoughts,
past/future, are absent. It is the purest form of just being. And it is an invitation ...
For you are not a man of violence, you're a man amongst violence.
And that is always available to you without having it be subject to the capricious frequency of external events. That is to say that even as the
vehicle for this feeling of aliveness, your job, ends ... the door is opening for you to be the source of that life as opposed to the consequence,
like an addict who no longer needs the drug to free themselves of their self.
It will be alright ... you are a man of high virtue, principle and compassion ... it will be alright.
Always around if you wish for further discussion on the above.