I'm gonna tell on myself just a bit, and I am going to hope the 'yer nutz' crowd doesn't stampede me.
I've got something akin to paranoia, but it's only from what I'm about to share- and I really, REALLY would love to know why this is happening:
This happened tonight at the usual Chinese place I go eat at- not once, but TWICE, I have women staring eye holes right on thru me- and I only noticed
when I- well- I noticed I was being stared at like that! If it means anything, one was on one side of the booth divider, the other was on the other
side, next to the table I was sitting at.
For some time, I have been getting really weird looks from white, middle aged women. That's where this wackiness starts. These women look at me like
I left my pants at home, and I'm grinning like a fool about it. It's a guarded, suspicious look- mixed with a little fear, and a slight pinch of
'unknown' apprehension. I've had short stares, where if I happen to look their way, they see I am looking back, and they turn their heads, and the
long, long, long stare that would make a deer in headlights look like they have reflexes of a superhero. Usually, I stare right back in that case, and
make a face. I usually get a revulsed look in return. I am always the one who notices this- It kinda upsets the normalcy of the moment when someone's
drilling 2 eye holes thru you.....
The weirdness continues:
Asian, Hispanic, oriental, black, Indian- You name ANY other race or culture, and this doesn't occur! I eat at a Chinese place- lots of various other
races there, I do my laundry in a public laundromat with people of every single above mentioned stripe doing theirs, too. Some of my usual haunts take
me by Indian/ Oriental markets. There have been times I get complimentary looks and smiles from some of the other races I mentioned- but most of the
time, unless I was on fire- they take the usual 'no notice' of me. This brings up another thing- If I smile at any of the 'nonwhite' races
(especially if I find them cute and I dont see a ring on a finger), I usually- 80% of the time get a smile back. White women? You'd think I tried to
stick my hand up their bra or something, the look they give me most of the time. To clarify, it ain't a happy look I get....
If it's any help, I am average everywhere (yes, even there), nothing noteworthy. I live in NC, and I dont smoke, drink only at home (and even then,
RARELY), and do not do drugs of any type. I am reasonably sane, and do not hallucinate. I'm white, just in case anyone wonders about that.
I do have to admit that this is just unsettling me each time it happens- mostly because the first thought is "what the heck is she staring at me like
that for?! I then checked for the usual reasons for a funny look without trying to be *too* conspicuous after the first few: X Y Z (Examine Your
Zipper for the uninitiated), a quick look down, and a quick booger check- not that I have loose debris problems, and I am ALWAYS conscious of anything
'hanging around' at any rate. Heck, I even asked the people if I was with tonight if I was having some sort of malfunction! Yes, it IS giving me a
complex. Is it gangstalking? I dunno. I dont get much more than the weird stares, and you'd think that other races would be involved, at any rate, or
at least blacks and hispanics (just on general rule of the % of them a person would run into on a given day). I'm not even close to making a racial
remark- I am simply pointing out statistics for who I'd run into on a regular basis.
I also notice as of late a LOT of people in expensive cars who are... well... aiming for me on the side of the road while I'm walking. More often
than not, I see a maniacal grin from the driver.....
There is one other thing to note: En route to the Chinese place for dinner, a car was next to my friend's while we were in traffic. I'm just staring
out the window. Guy in the back seat reaches up, pats the guy in the front seat, and points at me in an offhanded 'hitchhiker' way, I got a thumb
point. The car then stays out of range of me trying to see what the heck else is going on in the car. All 3 were somewhere in their late 40's, early
50's, wearing polo shirts, casual dress. Odd thing was that all 3 shirts were red....
Replies where I just get 'You're a looney toon' will get a complimentary 120 decibel raspberry.
So- who wants a shot at telling me what the heck's going on? Don't tell me I'm paranoid- This crap has done a stellar job of making me that
way! So, please- no Captain Obvious statements...
[edit on 26-3-2010 by wylekat]